All of us are assigned a journey. It is called Life. It is not a problem to be solved rather it is an adventure to live out to our fullest & a mystery unfolding for us to enjoy deeply. What experiences do you wish to have on this earth? How do you want this world to be different when you leave? I am excited by growing & I would like share the joy.
Saturday, September 30, 2006
the guardian ...
This is how the movie begins and ends. A movie that I rate a solid 10. The message of teamwork and the value of life gripped my heart. Hope it grips yours too.
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''How do you know who to save?''
''Everyone has their own method. For me I swim as fast as I can and take the weakest person and the sea takes the rest.''
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''So what was your record? Was it 300 or merely 200?''
''22''
''What only 22 saves? Wow!''
''The only record I keep is how many I lost.''
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A movie of the makings of a rescuer from the beginning through the ending and the tough work in between. A movie that you can take with you. A movie that you can challenge your own life. Are you for yourself or are you willing to be your brother's keeper?
-The legend goes that if you are lost on the deep seas there is a man .. a fisherman .. who will stay with you, whispering in your ear to hang on and that he will be there until help arrives. A guardian -
movie review : step up
Thursday, September 28, 2006
missing his spirit ...
'What I miss most is her spirit.'I got the tissues ready to watch the Terry Irwin interview with Barbara Walters. I have always secretly admired the Irwin's relationship and family. And yes, tis true .. the spirit of the person is what is missed.
Irwin's spirit :
*very open and inviting .. this was what drew Terry into his world. He had this energy that was so strong and it pulled you into his love for animals and his favorite crocs. I love hearing their love story ... over and over and over ....
*private .. wow! He was such an open man yet he had talked with his wife about his death and wanting to keep it private. She honors his wish by not saying where he is buried and keeping the memorial more low key than what he could have had and more like Steve himself.
*his sence of legacy / a sence of a limited life span but not a limited life
He prepared for his zoo after he was gone. He even prepared his wife for his death yet that was not his focus ... life was. He also made it clear that he would step away when his kids could carry on his legacy. Truly a man prepared and wise.
perspective on the Bob incident :
Yeah, the one where Steve was carrying Bob at one month too near the crocs they say. I see it as a really cool memory for Bob to carry with him. Bob has his dad flowing through him but won't be able to remember him or even have some cool memories like his big sis.
I never got to know my Grandpa L but I have some story-memories told to me by my parents. I was his favorite and I have two precious stories that keep him warm and alive to me. So same with Bob! He will be able to carry his dad's memory with such a neat and intimate father son moment. Precious!
20/20 interview
true blue oz
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
anatomy of the dispute ...
Looking back he projected a lot of what he thought on how she would respond. The more he could project the more he made it out that she did wrong.
Anger is a secondary response. Everything in the relationship up to this point was ok. (not super fine but ok- no issues on the radar). So why did he respond in anger when she asked the question? The question was asked very innocently and no agenda. She was hurt by his disrespect and his refusal to allow her to say anything. This is the beginning point. So why was he so angry?
Was there something bothering him about her or was he feeling overwhelmed with his own personality and being an adult now with responsibilities? He is studying to be a licensed physiologist. Isn’t he going to need some skills in communicating without projecting your own fears and rational into the issue at hand?
She has been searching for the right way to mend fences. So with anger being a secondary emotion and getting the feeling that he is overwhelmed and searching his own path in the adult world and owning his personality strengths and weaknesses, she is stepping back. It allows her to keep her hands-off the wheel and allows him to grow. Unfortunately, he sees her as an enemy and she longs to correct it. However, being 10 years further along in her journey, she has the ‘vision’ of what God can do when you are stuck in muck of our own personality. Great things come when God lets His Joy-Hounds of Heaven lose in your life. While she waits, she prays ‘sic ‘em’!!!
quickie :
*anger = a secondary emotion to loss, grief, failure, no control
*Q’s 4self – approachable? feel safe? listening? nice?
*why not ask ‘if anger is a secondary emotion, what is your core feeling?’
(a soft approach – softens you as well as the angry party)
personality vs privilege
Tuesday, September 26, 2006
twinkle rock ...
moment captured : september gold
Monday, September 25, 2006
trying to keep you ...
Taylor,
I would like to say hello to you. I think you were fine. I am to fine. I like to say thank you for all the things that you have done for me. Now I'm doing grade 8. Next year I'm doing grade 9. I will need you support. I will try as if I can to be not lose you all the times.
- EN
Dearest EN,
Taylor isn’t my name. Is this your former sponsor? I chose you or rather your sad eyes chose me. I wanted an older girl like you because I wanted to prove my ‘stickability’. You do not have to try to keep me. It is my responsibility and privilege to be steadfast and committed to you. I know you have had a plateful of loved ones leave you and I only have had a spoonful. I hate absence enough to want to shower you with a constant thought and prayer for you. I want you to know you are valuable and worthy of someone to care about your welfare and to support you. I cannot replace your mother or your father or their love, but I will do my best at covering you with my KingdomMail. I have a Heavenly Father that watches over me and over you. This brings a comfort to my heart and spirit. You are beautiful. You are worthy. You are a keeper. You bring a sad tear to my eye but joy and urgency to my spirit. Be comforted little beautiful one. You are my girl.
~always keeper
horizon international
kuyasa* kids (*sun rising)
Sunday, September 24, 2006
teeth on edge or change up …
The hardest part is to change. We have the power to alter what we want to change. We do better when we know better. The proof lies in Jeremiah 31:29-30 about an old covenant and a new one on a lesson in sour grapes.
"In those days people will no longer say,
'The fathers have eaten sour grapes,
and the children's teeth are set on edge.'
Instead, everyone will die for his own sin;
whoever eats sour grapes
- his own teeth will be set on edge.
jer 31:29-30
So all you have to do is stop eating sour grapes! Sounds easy and I know it will be hard but this is really gooooooood encouragement! One little piece of advice is that you must WANT it bad enough or you will continue to pop those sour grapes as if they were the finest chocolates.
thoughts of home ...
What celebrations, traditions, and blessings can you begin in your home today? How does this relate to Worship? What traditions do you remember from home? What traditions do you wish you would have had in your childhood home? Why not make some? You will pave the way for God-Seeds to germinate. You can even do in a single household. Don't delay...
Saturday, September 23, 2006
grape showers ...
As I picked the movie 'Sideways' came to mind as I thought back over the summer and how it effected the grape. It wasn't overly hot or overly rainy whatever it was, it wasn't really good for the grape or at least not like last year. The arbor on the side has huge Concord grapes. They are a seedy lot and very tart. I picked so many last year I didn't go to the arbor in the back. This year I picked about handful and went to the back yard. Here I found several handfuls of tiny Concord grapes (no seeds!). They made me wish they were blueberries instead. (I love blueberries) No matter I will have some grape juice soon! Mmmmm!
The back arbor faces east and west. With the growth of the grapes all on the western side, grapes like the warm afternoon sun hiding out under the umberella of grape leaves.
I found a perfect brunch of grapes. Yellow green to yellow purple - I looked deeply. I can't wait to paint it! I love how painting has nurtured the awe of nature for me. These yellow grapes where Nieagra (they have seeds) but I didn't pick those because I saw one batch and thought they weren't ripe. Bummer, but I did learn a lot just my taking it all in deeply.
I enjoyed picking the grapes in the rain. I think it is the best way! I didn't feel buggy like you would if there a normal rainless September day. The rain was a soft patter to a steady downpour. It was music to my ears as it patter agaisnt the huge grape leaves and my blue raincoat. Perfect way to 'dance' in the rain as an adult! Grape juice as an reward too!
mad chow : ribs!
the breakdown of breakup smarts ...
'whoever eats sour grapes—his own teeth will be set on edge' jer 31:30
If something is unclear, if there is rejection, if there is a disappearance, if there is neglect, if there is abuse in a relationship, then you are eating sour grapes. Feeling edgy? No wonder!
2) Step away / See clearly
Step away to allow breathing room. (they recommend 60days no contact) See clearly. If you need to write down the break up and translate it into words that you understand better. Painful but needed. Moves you quicker through the searing blindness and onto your furture.
3) Take your hands off the wheel
Stop controlling. Even if you think you have the hands off approach down pat, there are still stuttle ways to sneak the hands onto the wheel. Yup, that means no knees either!
4) Own your life journey
To live deeply is to own every experience that comes your way. Inhale and feel it evade every part of your being so that you are not an empty vessel.
5) Celebrate the classy balanced superfox that you are
You are valueable to this world. All your gifts, talents, and dreams that are in you are made to be given out to those that come into your world. So make sure you take care of you!
ok temper tantrum
Enough with the break up part, huh? Yeah, I've had enough of it too. It sure helped me step back into my future. Yes, break ups are a part of life, but what about caretaking and make ups? I am a very stedfast person. I have deep roots. I use to be bold and try to tackle relationship issues head on until that didn't work. I feel that you should be able to discuss a problem without winning. Find the smallest but most real thorn and make changes for the next leg of the journey. How else are you to have a really good deep marriage or relationship? How do you say 'that hurts don't do it again.' It is troubling to me to see my friends' marriages breaking up. It is painful to have a family member disrespect me and then get angry with me for trying to say don't. It just broke more because I tried to pursue the issue to fix it up. So that is what I am searching and will be revealing my discoveries here. Heads up with hope - there has to be some makeup smarts out there!
Friday, September 22, 2006
september gold ...
moment captured : exquisite!!!
Thursday, September 21, 2006
an ok temper tantrum...
Funny as a parent you would not allow this kind of behavior from our young or at least in my parents day they have your hide =)
But I am purposing that as an adult this kind of temper tantrum is needed. Yes, you heard right. I am encouraging you to stand there in with all your being and shout on the top of your lungs that your life journey and your dreams are yours and that no one is going to take it or mess it up for you. You are in charge and you have every right to make sure you are carrying out your purpose and your dreams. Sorry, no excuses for being defeated. When someone has wronged you, shout out 'all mine - I am responsible for who I am and what I do.' Ok, that was good but a little louder. Show more confidence please!
Let me tell you from personal experience it feels soo good to reclaim parts of myself and my dreams that have gotten batter and beaten down. Don't misunderstand me. I am not saying to be defiant towards God. No, the temper tantrums are needed to get back to the hard God-Lessons learned through out your journey. It is a triumph to take back my adventure and mystery and lay them down again at His feet. A pretty nice victory!!!
She grabs her paper hat and her baton and high steps it around her small skybox. Letting out her most fiercest rebel yell, ''Mine! All mine!! Not letting you take it from me!!! Never, no way, no how will I let you steal my treasure. I am keeping my grubby little hands tightly clinched around all that I hold dear. Mine! Mine!! All mine!!!
you want to report a missing person/
quickie :
own your life
own your dreams
own your experiences
own your life lessons
own your strengths & weakness
own your JOY
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
ribs!!!
When I went to get some pears yesterday, I took another glance. Another pumpkin just fell into my hands because the stem had gone mushy. I cleaned up the bush baby and I am to displaying it for fall in my house even though it is a bit puny. I told my mom that I am just going to love these no matter how little and lack of growth they were able to achieve. I refuse to be bummed by how little and unproductive my blue pumpkins have been for me. I choose to be happy and enjoy the little batch I have. I will have two good ones and I hope for the rest to keep growing. What matters most is that I chose to grow blue pumpkins and to enjoy them no matter what.
Ok, about the blue color? These pumpkins will be grey blue in color. I find it hard to know if they are blue because the bush babies where a light green. I do believe the two in the center of the patch with ribs are a grey blue. I wonder if they will go darker. The jarrahdale is a darker brighter green. It is still a baby. I hope it hangs on because I really want to see the color change on it and maybe it will be easier to see it with the bush babies already way out hatching him.
I will do my happy dance but with lots of hope for more to come!
mad chow :save blue pumpkins for me
True Blue - Oz
Hey True Blue, don't say you've gone
Say you've knocked off for a smoko
And you'll be back later on
Hey True Blue, Hey True Blue
Give it to me straight
Face to face
Are you really disappearing,
Just another dying race,
Hey True Blue.
True Blue, is it me and you?
Is it Mum and Dad, is it a cockatoo?
Is it standing by your mate
When he's in a fight?
Or will she be right?
True Blue, I'm asking you...
Hey True Blue, can you bear the load?
Will you tie it up with wire,
Just to keep the show on the road?
Hey True Blue, Hey True Blue, now be Fair Dinkum
Is your heart still there?
If they sell us out like sponge cake
Do you really care?
Hey True Blue.
True Blue, is it me and you?
Is it Mum and Dad, is it a cockatoo?
Is it standing by your mate
When she's in a fight?
Or will she be right?
True Blue, I'm asking you...
True Blue, is it me and you?
Is it Mum and Dad, is it a cockatoo?
Is it standing by your mate
When he's in a fight?
Or will she be right?
True Blue ... True Blue.
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True Blue=
Steadfast loyal Australian who displays
the Aussie ideals of a fair go for all,
mateship, having a go, and solving problems.
tribute to irwin
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
you want to report a missing person?
He was a really good friend. I felt the connection right off. We both marveled at the feeling of home we felt with each other.
Describe your relationship.
Our relationship from the start was one that I was very comfortable with. I could tell that I could talk about anything. It amazed me that I finally could talk to another person about spiritual things without any confusion. We were on the same wave length .. same language. Over the four years we kept getting closer where he asked if he could call me. Four hours plus chattering on the phone seemed so short because we felt we had finally mattered to someone.
Was he showing signs of leaving?
Oh yes, from day one he showed signs of leaving. He was trying to establish himself at the time. He had no real place of his own or computer. He relied on internet cafes. He did make connections with me. There was a conversation about how if I was still around enabled him to realize if I was a reliable friend. Then there was a time he was gone for 6 months. It was a long time for me to handle but it was ok because he was back. We just picked up where we had left off. To most people that is part of being a good friend. However, the last year we had made huge strides in taking our friendship deeper to the point where leaving and picking back up isn't an option for me. We were making plans on writing a book together. I felt that was a commitment. He sent be a leaving letter explaining that he was too busy and too tired. It really bothered me. He never left it open to him coming back.
Looking back I see that his leaving letter was a ‘rejection’ letter. I just couldn’t understand it. He did email me once every month after about where he was spiritually. I always felt the letters was not a personal letter to me rather to a group. He never spoke of how he was or how his kids where. Then somewhere in November I heard no peep from him. I personally felt he had a problem with flight whenever it got rough. I just never saw it as him leaving me rather his life was out of whack. I never saw the rejection as rejection till now. To me it was a disappearance. It still is.
What has this whole disappearance mean to you?
I was extremely angry about it. Disappearance is really about devaluing another and allowing the person to feel unworthy of your presence. I could not believe he would do this to me. I was conflicted if he was just that broken down or if I wasn’t worthy enough for his presence. Maybe I put too much into this disappearance. I tried to sweep it aside giving him allowances. I found that it only made me more mad at God than with him. I am finding out how deep it goes that valuing others and treatment is important. Your presence is extremely important. Withholding is abuse. No more excuses. I am not mad at God any more. I am not mad at him either. Disappointed? Yes.
My life has been a constant reminder that ‘I will not be where I am not wanted’, but there is another part to that equation to make it complete. ‘I will not be where I am not wanted so I will be where I want to be in my journey’ (~k). Love life. I refuse to give up on the Joy that has transformed my life. Part of Joy is enjoying God and all His creations. I am one of His creations. He delights in me. I cannot be forgotten because He has etched my name in His hands. I have pressed myself deeper into the side of Jesus. I can’t let go. I am more upright now and not so broken. It feels like I have come through it and into the sunshine.
I feel like I am more aware of the ‘wanting something bad enough you will do something about it’. It has always been there. I remember my mother at her wits in over my lack of pride in cleaning the sinks. Her final words have always stuck with me. ‘If it is important enough to you, you will move heaven and earth to do something about it.’ It might have been about pride in my cleaning but as this still haunts me as an adult, I must know what is important to me. I feel more certain that if I feel a disappearance coming on or a lack of enthusiasm, I will be putting the feet to the flame. I won’t be afraid so much to ask what is important to you. I will walk away more sure of who you are and with my head held high.
Disappearance and rejection is stuck and unable to let go. Giving excuses is also holding onto the wheel. Now that I recognize that I will be more carefree with my life. I refuse to hold the wheel. The best that has come my way has been because God was the only One driving. My most favorite and safe way to life my life is no hands. =)
quickie
hands-off off-roading=
* not trying to manipulate how you feel about me
* allowing you to disappear and not go crazy
* not being where I am not wanted but being where I want to be in my journey
* not making excuses for you but excusing myself gracefully to go out on the dance floor and love life joyfully (~k)
'so into you' letter
tribute to Irwin ...
Bindi
"My daddy was my hero - he was always there for me when I needed him."
"He listened to me and taught me so many things but most of all he was fun.
"I know that daddy had an important job. He was working to change the world so everyone would love wildlife like he did."
Bindi said her father built a hospital and bought land to give animals a safe place to live and she wanted to continue his legacy.
"I don't want daddy's passion to ever end," she said. "I want to help endangered wildlife just like he did."
Bindi said she would miss her father.
"I have the best daddy in the whole world and I will miss him every day," she said.
"When I see a crocodile I will always think of him and I know that daddy made this zoo so everyone could come and learn to love all the animals.
"Daddy made this place his whole life and now it's our turn to help daddy."
PM John Howard
"We gather in this special place that Steve created to celebrate the life of a remarkable man and a remarkable Australian,"
"Steve Irwin touched the hearts of Australians and touched the hearts of millions around the world in a very special way.
"He did that because he had that quality of being genuine, of being authentic, of being unconditional and having a great zest for life and, throughout his all-too-short life, he demonstrated a love for the two things that ought to matter more to all of us than anything else: his love of his family and his love of his country."
Mr Howard said Irwin brought to Australians and to the world an understanding of nature.
"He taught our children in particular to love and respect all creatures great and small," he said.
"In everything he did he was direct, he was genuine and oh-so Australian and that is what we loved about him."
Hugh Jackman
"Whether it's for the wilderness, whether it's for the animals, his family, whether it's for just the planet, or just life in itself, Steve showed us that we can live like warriors, and we can make the world a better place," he said
the age.com.au
Sunday, September 17, 2006
bowed praise to You ...
who has delighted in you
and placed you on the throne of Israel.
Because of the LORD's eternal love for Israel,
He has made you king to maintain justice and righteousness.
~I Kings 10:9
delighted in you ... placed you in this way you walk ..
yes, His Eternal Love burns for you ..
maintain what is right, true, and good...
Saturday, September 16, 2006
'so into you' letter ...
You wonder if I have noticed you? Just divide the time in half for you to notice me. Don’t worry about your quiet nature or that you feel invisible because I have already noticed you. All it took was your smile and warm eyes to pique my interest. You have been working on your engaging quiet style so stop doubting the aloofness. That was said of you long long ago. It is not there today. Do I want you bad enough? Oh yes! I will pursue you. You desire to know for sure without any doubts that I am into you so go on love life and be certain that I will find you.
Don’t worry about the friendship factor. If I am truly excited about and attracted to you, I won’t stop myself .. I will go for more. I will take it further than friendship. I am not afraid. Too little money, too busy, too stressed, ‘love is too damaged’ is not going to stop me from trying to keep you in my life. Because I dig you, I might ask for personal reasons to go slow, but I will let you know immediately. I won’t keep you guessing; because I want to make sure you don’t get frustrated and go away. Having said that don’t let me trick you into asking me out. It makes for a lazy me. I want you? I will do the work to keep you. It is ok for you to make me work for your number or for contact information. One note .. if you say no, I will ask again. I am strong enough and for you to know that I am for real, I won’t make you feel lousy. You need to feel comfortable in your decisions and your life. Remember this, men like to pursue women. Yes, I like NOT knowing if I can catch you. In the end I will feel so totally rewarded when I do .. especially if the chase is a long one. Your reward? Knowing that I wanted you enough to pursue you. The chase allows you to know my love.
I will never be toooo busy to call you. I like taking a break from my generally mundane day to talk to someone I like. It makes me happy. I like happy. Just like you. Because I am into you, you are the bright spot in my horribly busy day which would be a day that I would never be too busy to call you. Don’t allow any excuses for not calling fool you. Always remember actions speak louder than words especially excuses. Please don’t except the ‘oh, I forgot’! Don’t you want a guy who’ll forget about all the other things in his life before he forgets about you? Yeah, I thought so. I don’t want to be sloppy with my relationships. My promises need to stand solid. My words must retain all the value or you will lose faith in me. I could not stand that. I am into you way too much. Memo: Men are never too busy or forgetful to get what they want. If a guy (jerk) creates expectations for you, and then doesn’t follow through on the little thing, he will do the same for the big things. Be aware of this and realize that he’s ok with disappointing you. You are too exceptional for me to waste. You are always on my mind. I sure don’t want you to be disappointed in me.
There is a line between ‘hanging out’ and dating. Yes, it is a bit gray so let me clear things up for you so you know my full intentions without guesswork. When I ask you out on a true date, I am making it official. I want to see you alone to find out if there is more to us. I will be taking you out for a public excursion, a good meal, and some hand holding if you allow. ‘Fear of intimacy’ is a definite urban myth to cover a coward’s ways.
Watch out for the word ‘friend’. It is used by both sexes to excuse the most unfriendly behavior. When picking friends, I like the ones who don’t make me cry myself to sleep. So take care of yourself. If you’re crying yourself to sleep, wipe the tear away. Go love life. You are soo worth more than to be used. I want to feel emotionally protected when a relationship becomes serious. I want you to feel safe as well. One way I can prove protected is by laying claim to my relationship to you. I will say that ‘I would like to be your boyfriend’ or ‘I’m your boyfriend’ or ‘If you ever break up with that other guy who’s not your boyfriend, I’d like to be your boyfriend.’ I want you all to myself. I want your beautiful glowing self in my life. You can bet that I won’t allow a couple weeks go by much less once a month without you. I want you so I’ll be calling you, and making you feel good and desired fully. Give your word that you will not tolerate murky, gray, unidentified, and undeclared feelings exist in your romantic relationship. You deserve all the love you dream and wish for in the teamship you dream about.
Even though deep intimacy is best when kept for marriage, men are going to have a hard time keeping his paws off you when they are into you. So yeah, you bet I am going to want to some hand holding and kissing. The nugget here is to know if I am into you or not is to realize if there isn’t touching involved that guy is not into you. Also beware of those that use you to not feel alone. They are just passing the time getting the physical until the girl they are into come along. (User Losers!) You are a beautiful creature inside and out. Stick to your values. I want your values and all. Don’t be tempted to settle for the sake of attention. I will give you my full attention. You are too special to me to neglect your heart.
Now comes the pep talk about cheaters. Don’t ever take the excuse or share the blame for why they cheated. Don’t even ask what you did wrong. Cheating doesn’t just happen. It was planned and executed with full knowledge that it could end your relationship. Even if they claim they don’t know why they did it, it is not something you should tolerate. Cheating gets easier over time so why let them do it over and over again? Remember cheaters cheat themselves … because he doesn’t get to be with you!!! Wait for me. I value you too much to cheat you on the relationship you so dream about. I too want a protected marriage. Yes, I believe in communication.
I want you too much to be intoxicated by any other form such as alcohol and drugs. You take my breath away. I feel like a man around your soft gentle ways. You make me smile and laugh. Why would I want to lose any of my precious memories with you?
Every man has laid claim to not wanting to get married or doesn’t believe in marriage or has issues with marriage. That is because they hadn’t found their match. Guarantee I even said those things. Interesting though that you caught my eye and love cured all my commitment phobias! I share your views for the future. I desire a loving commitment for the rest of our days just like you. Sure, there will never be a good time, financially, to get married. Too poor is just an excuse! I am going to let you know as soon as possible that I mean business. I will not give off mix messages. I do care how you are feeling. The ‘I’m not ready’ is another lame excuse. It foreshadows unfulfilling relationship for you. Hold close to your heart, I am a guy who can’t wait to love you. It is a really big deal for a good guy to finally meet the woman he wants to spend the rest of his life with. Never spend your time on and give your heart to any guy who makes you wonder about anything related to his feelings for you. I want you and you will have not doubts. I definitely want to marry you!!!
Maybe your heart broken by guys who break up with you before I can reach you. ‘I don’t want to go out with you’ means just that. Walk away with class. Walk away with your head held high, graciously, and with dignity. That’s it baby! Don’t be sucker into to doing anything for him. Don’t get all crazy either. Go ahead and grieve for the loss but go out and love life. Love yourself enough to know what you want is ok to have. Know you gave with all your heart. That is the beauty of you. Don’t waste it on him anymore. I can’t wait to enjoy all the beauty you will bring into my life. Believe.. your dreams will come true because I believe too.
Maybe he’s gone. Poof. Vanished into thin air. Confused? Don’t be! He’s made it clear that he’s so not into you that he couldn’t even be bothered to leave a post-it. Sure you want to solve the mystery but the important part of this disappearance is that he didn’t want you and he no guts to say it to your face! Don’t give him the chance to reject you again. No answer is your answer. Case closed. Plainly he did not value you. You crave value and attention. It is extremely important to have respect and interest in you. Keep it. Don’t let him take that desire from you. Don’t be where you’re not wanted but do be where you want to be in your journey. He isn’t even worth the tears you may cry. This truly makes me mad. You are so worthy of loving attention. You are a beautiful woman worthy of my presence. Why would I want to disappear when I have such a radiant woman inside and out right in front of me? I want you and love you too much not to walk the rest of my days hand in hand with you.
Maybe he's married, living with a woman, or has a girlfriend, run girl run! Maybe you didn’t realize right away or maybe he said so or maybe it is an ex he still yelling about or maybe he is crying over his last girlfriend.... welll no matter what if he isn’t all yours, he’s still hers. Another way to put it is if the person you ‘love’ cannot freely spend his days thinking about you and being with you, it’s not REAL love. Unfortunately, we live in a world of broken relationships. Be so careful to keep to your dreams of a good marriage burning. It is ok to break off a bad relationship. I know you are a nice girl but don’t allow men to push you into a place that makes you feel bad. It is toxic. God will bless you with better relationships. (me!) Be ok to walk alone. You are going to meet many men in many different stages of recovering from relationships. If I is really into you, I will get over my issues fast and make sure I don’t lose you. Or I will make it clear to you how I feel, so there’s no mystery, and tell you up front that I’m not up to it right now. And then you best be sure, the minute I am ready, I will run out and find you. You are not easily forgettable.
Maybe he makes you unhappy because he is selfish or he bullies you, or doesn’t like your family and friends. Is he making you happy? No? Cut him loose. I am going to share responsibilities with you. I am going to put effort in taking you out on sweet dates! I am going to remember your birthday. You deserve flowers and walks. I will compliment you and thank you. If I fail in an area of affection, I will take action. You are going to like things that I may not understand but I will make an attempt to love your family and friends. These are your support team and why wouldn’t I want to know them and love them?
Now about yelling, being publicly humiliated, or made to feel fat or unattractive? It’s hard to feel worthy of love when someone is going out of their way to make you feel worthless. I cherish you and there is no way I could damage you with verbal or physical or physiological abuse. Now about leeching off your family, that is using you and those around you. Not going to happen. So if the guy is messed up somewhere, of course you know you can’t fix him. Yes, I am covering all the bases until I can get to you. So some last minute pointers: Life is hard enough as it is without choosing someone difficult to share it with. You deserve to be with someone who is nice to you all the time. There’s never a reason to shout at someone unless they are in imminent danger. Make space in your life for the glorious things you deserve. Have faith!
I want you. I love you. Don’t worry! I’m coming for you! Read this often!
~ your future!
Instead of making notecards of this book, I took the guy smarts and wrote an 'into you' letter.
I will be keeping this lesson learned.
fr: ''He's Just Not that into You'' ~ greg behrendt & liz tuccillo
My Grace is sufficient for you
Thursday, September 14, 2006
My Grace is sufficient for you ...
~ elegance, refinement, loveliness, polish,
beauty, style, poise, charm, class
~covering over what we lack my definition =)
So when His Answer is a gentle No, His Grace keeps us poised as we walk the way He has given us whether our prayer was for healing of sickness or heartache etc. He is the Sure Foundation, a Rich Store of Salvation, basically an abundant Storehouse to spare us the bent and brokenness that we so cling too. Rather He wants us with head held high confident that He works all things for our good...
He will be the Sure Foundation for your times,
A Rich Store of Salvation, & Wisdom, & Knowledge;
The Fear of the Lord is the Key to this Treasure.
~Isa 33:6
my 'not into you' letter
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
my 'not into you' letter ...
From : preciousgift
Sent : Sunday, May 8, 2005 5:18 PM
To : keeper
Subj : Quick Hi.
My son said you called yesterday.
I've been working unsustainable hours lately... Have my daughter’s orthodontic work to pay for.
When I get a few minutes to myself I just want to talk to son and daughter, and just be by myself.
Nothing personal, but I close my door and regenerate while I can.
Be good.
Preciousgift
Translation:
From: Not into you
To: not for keeps
Subj: quick good bye
Don’t call me. I am too busy, too poor, too tired, and too insular to carry on a conversation with you. My son and daughter are important BUT NOT YOU. What is left which is less than crumbs is for closing the door to you. It is personal .. me.
I don’t care that we feel like home when we talk. I don’t care if we had some good laughs. I don’t care if I called you first or suggested creating a book together. I don’t care if we had a safe place to explore our inner most thoughts and our walk with God. I don’t care for meat or fluff. I don’t care if you are finally getting down to your naked innermost being with me. I don’t care for friendship or a significant. It is no longer important or of value to me right now. Go away little girl.
good bye and good riddance
not into you
my homework from the book that allows no-excuse truth to understand guys….
''He’s Just Not That into You'' ~greg behrendt & liz tuccillo
Aren’t you being harsh with your translation?
The book was harsh and I cried, but after the storm I was finally able to let go of pain and value me. I resorted back to asking God why when that is the last thing I wanted to do. This was excruciating pain and I don’t want to feel or fall into it again. I wrote out the translation to keep a lesson learned. My life is about how I carry myself on this earth. I refuse broken and beaten.
So PreciousGift is totally written out of your life for good?
If he stays away, yes. If he should come back, there will have to be negotiations for renewal of a friendship. I will be holding his feet to the fire. I was extremely upset over his devaluing us and me.
Don’t get me wrong. PreciousGift is a pretty cool guy. I still care about him and his dreams. I have some pretty great memories of our talks. ‘all good’ a favorite phrase he would use. He is my issac and he’s all God’s.
I take it you had some great memories. What do you do about them?
I keep them. It was pretty awesome to experience a guy who I really dug. He was spiritually on the same wavelength as I was. He also knew how to have a discussion with me without making me feel attacked. I loved his laugh and he made me smile. I felt secure and comfortable with him. I loved that. I loved that we could talk about the color blue without him thinking it was strange. I love that he like asking questions of each other to find out the real us.
It is confusing to me. I felt he really liked me and that I was important friend in his life to up and disappear….
Did you have any little voice in the back saying ‘wait, he isn’t adding up here’?
Yes, he was describing how his sisters where insular. I point out asked him if he wasn’t insular as well. His answer? Yes. I could since his moods especially the ones when everything was overwhelming him. Flight was his speed so I asked him about men and their caves. His answer was helpful but with a million miles of earth and water between us, there was no way for me to reach out touch and he gave me no ways reach him.
What would you do differently?
I would never have called him even in the name of saving money or writing a book. I would have never over emailed him. I would learn to keep it short and simple and only to return his correspondance. If he would complain about meat or naked, I would have held his feet to the fire and say hey, pursue. If you want it, go for it. When he hedge the question about whether what we had would get to more, I would again have to hold him to the fire. If you want it bad enough you will do something about it. No more trying to spare his feelings or my possible awkwardness. If I would have done these things, I would have know for sure about him. If he would have excelled in his pursuit, then I would have know he was strong enough for me.
good gift vs cad, fraud & coward
flat daddy ...
Just saw where there is someplace that is supplying military families
with a life size cardboard cutout of their loved one serving in the war.
The mother described it as a great way to help her young children feel
their dad's presence especially on big events like her daughter's first
day of school. They take this visual picture of their father's spirit
out in public to their major events. Mother even admitted to buckling
him in the car to go do errands with her.
What a wonderful way not just for young kids but grown up adult kids too
feel close and even communicate with their loved one far away.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
talk & walk game strategy ...
I have been watching a game where a player has announced that he is the puppeteer. He controls the plays. He even uses phrases like ‘caught in my web’. He is makes sure that he is the last person to have a say before the other makes their play. Time and time again the other players are enchanted by his charisma. The pawn admitted that her downfall was that she trusted too many people. I set back baffled but not for long. I am using this as a visual to strengthen my own wellspring.
There is a game being played in real life and in real time. There is a playbook charted out by the Islamic extremists where they have a timeline mapped out of how they are going to take over all world governments including the Islamic countries by 2020somthing. What really gets me is that they are using other countries to take out Iraq, Iran, and even Syria so that there is chaos for terrorists want-to-bes form and spread more evil and ultimately rule the world . Boil it down and you have Islam warring against Islam. Exacting what they say they will not do. I think they are trying to play and manipulated the western world to their ultimate plan.
I do not oppose war. War is needed to fight against wrong, and that the downtrodden and underdogs needs someone to come to their aid. There must be payment for wrongdoing and talk never gets anything done. Freedom is for everyone not just a select few. So what am I purposing? Minds! We need to think strategically and to avoid being played. Yes, we even are going to have to be students of their way of thinking to understand better how to battle in this game after we know our own weaknesses and strengths. We don’t all think the same. There are a lot of cultural, environmental, and religious bits to sort through. We cannot fail to take it all into consideration.
It bothers me so because this is on a higher playing field at worldly vastness. I am left a spectator. Even if I was a player, I know I would fail. So what is left? Be the student! Learn how to play the game on your own playing field .. your life.
Be well-balanced because your adversary the devil walks around like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour. Resist him, steadfast in faith…(1 Pet 5:8-9a). I put well-balanced in place of self-controlled like in the AMP version. I was wondering how they came up with that for self-controlled. Looking at equivalent words, I found measured and realized yes, well-balanced should be used for a descriptive word for self-control. What better mindset to have than to take measured steps. Notice here the lion is not hiding in the grass watching and waiting, rather he is ROARING. Good grief! You couldn’t help but notice a ROARING lion! Hmmm, so our adversary isn’t going to be quiet about his evil ways. In fact he will be quite charming and seemingly truthful about his intent. Believe him. Don’t get hung up on his ‘truth’. He is a beautiful being. We will fall every time to his attractions.
Our last word whispered to our hearts and minds should be God’s Word. Every thought should be captured and filtered through His Promises. Our confidence needs to stay hold to the Rock, our Strong Tower. Prove wrong every deceitfully charming words of the adversary. Recognize that the devil admits his ways are evil and believe it the first time. Remain strong by exercising God’s Word and Promises in your life. This is the ‘talk’ strategy.
For our ‘walk’ strategy the believers must stand firm that they are responsible for their actions even if they were duped into taking on evil yet on the down low they are really being manipulated by evil. Believers are way to trusting of everybody in the name of being a nice person or even in the name of loving others. Instead our trust should be limited. Steadfast in faith means to trust only that which is a Sure Foundation. So what about being nice? Believers are going to have to pull apart our trust from serving with love. Don’t mix the two up into one. Trust God and serve with love.
I think I am stuck in the struggle of not being played. Let’s take the bigger world game. Taking out an evil man and replacing it with freedom seems to me like a very good move, but it is looking like we played right into the terrorist’s playbook and strategy. I just feel so strongly that if I am accountable for my actions, I don’t want to answer to why I allowed others to manipulate my actions no matter how covert they were. Having thought some more, it is ok to take out evil as long as we stay on the offensive and create peace and security so that evil cannot fester. Sure evil will always ‘look’ like it wins, but God loves to interrupt evil. So it is not of our might but His.
So simply put pay attention to the talk and walk of others. Trust only God and His Attributes. Exercise His Words and His Promises in your life. Strategically go over your actions making sure to serve in love. Being confident in Faith means to refuse all manipulation so your actions prove Him. Lastly, His Wisdom covers you so seek it to shield against exploitation.
life is a game
more secure?
You can be secure. There is only one Rescuer and Rock ... the only Sure Foundation... He will keep you secure... if you only put your trust in Him...
Sept 11 : '06 painting flags
Monday, September 11, 2006
painting flags...
Sept. 8, 2006 — When New York City artist Scott Lobaido looks at a roof, what he sees is a canvas, a canvas he fills with his unabashed affection for the American flag and the veterans who have served under it.
"I'm a crazy New York City artist living in America, and I pretty much have more freedom than most people do in the entire world," Lobaido says. "It's a big, fat greeting card saying, Thank you!"
And as thanks, he paints the flags for free.
"It's not pro-war, anti-war. It's about these men and women who step up to the plate. It's about the patriotic glue, this glue that keeps us all together regardless of our ideology," he says.
For years in New York, Lobaido's art stoked controversy. It was the work of an angry patriot who wanted to provoke. But since 9/11, Lobaido has been rethinking his stance. And what he believes now is that true patriotism is less "in your face" and more from the heart.
"I don't think there's ever too much patriotism. Especially now," he says.
Now he's painting the flag in all 50 states, which is no easy journey. He's making the mission in a patched-up old Chevrolet Suburban with no air conditioning. He calls his truck Betsy.
fr:person of the week
I love his Betsy all decked out in flag colors! Good choice of name from the lady who created and sewed our first flag. Bravo!
Sept 11: '06 top 100
top 100 ...
This story imspired me to start my own. My list is my no regrets plan ... my 'dream setting' for me.
1)hold to Joy
I will delight & savor
always increasing my capasity
for God's Presence in my life.
I will declare His Attributes with Thanksgiving.
~k
Sept 11 : '05 Sure Foundation for your times
no regrets plan
Sunday, September 10, 2006
good gift vs cad, fraud, & coward
I did NOT want to be angry or harbor ill feelings towards this good gift. Now as the good gift has crumbled apart like a bad wormed up apple, I am horrified...
The evening wolf, infuriated by a day of hunger, was fiercer and more ravenous than he would have been in the morning. May not the furious creature represent our doubts and fears after a day of distraction of mind, losses in business, and perhaps ungenerous tauntings from our fellow men? How our thoughts howl in our ears, "Where is now thy God?" How voracious and greedy they are, swallowing up all suggestions of comfort, and remaining as hungry as before. Great Shepherd, slay these evening wolves, and bid Thy sheep lie down in green pastures, undisturbed by insatiable unbelief.
O Thou who hast laid down Thy life for the sheep, preserve them from the fangs of the wolf.
~ Spurgeon's Evening Sept 10
O my Shephard, I have found this to be a horrible education on man's behavior. I am sicken. I need Your Wisdom. I don't want to call a supposed good gift a cad.... help!
~ a frighten girl always...
Be master of your petty annoyances
& conserve your energies for the big, worthwhile things.
It isn't the mountain ahead that wears you out
- it's the grain of sand in your shoe.
~ Robert Service
all things new
Saturday, September 09, 2006
irwinisms ...
Because when they strike it can be that quick that if they're within range, you're dead, you're dead in your tracks. And his head weighs more than my body so it's WHACK!
But I put my life on the line to save animals.
Crikey means gee whiz, wow!
Crikey, mate. You're far safer dealing with crocodiles and western diamondback rattlesnakes than the executives and the producers and all those sharks in the big MGM building.
Every cent we earn from Crocodile Hunter goes straight back into conservation. Every single cent.
I believe that education is all about being excited about something. Seeing passion and enthusiasm helps push an educational message.
I get called an adrenaline junkie every other minute, and I'm just fine with that.
I have no fear of losing my life - if I have to save a koala or a crocodile or a kangaroo or a snake, mate, I will save it.
I'm a proud Australian, a very, very proud Australian.
I've probably saved thousands of peoples' lives with my educational message on snake bites, how to get in around venomous anything.
My belief is that what comes across on the television is a capture of my enthusiasm and my passion for wildlife.
My dad taught me from my youngest childhood memories through these connections with Aboriginal and tribal people that you must always protect people's sacred status, regardless of the pest.
Sharks, I've been self-trained as well, and crocodiles, naturally. I've been catching them since I was nine. No problem.
Since I was a boy, from this house, I was out rescuing crocodiles and snakes. My mum and dad were very passionate about that and, I was lucky enough to go along.
Snakes are just very instinctive to me. I've been playing with snakes since before I could walk. It doesn't matter where or what it is, from the biggest to the most venomous.
So fear helps me from making mistakes, but I make lot of mistakes.
That might have a lot to do with it, but you know, I probably don't show fear, but I suffer from fear like everyone else.
The first crocodile I ever caught was at nine years of age, and it was a rescue.
The only animals I'm not comfortable with are parrots, but I'm learning as I go. I'm getting better and better at 'em. I really am.
There's a lot of research behind the scenes that you don't get to see, but I have an instinct that my dad nurtured from when I was born. I was very lucky then.
When I talk to the camera, mate, it's not like I'm talking to the camera, I'm talking to you because I want to whip you around and plunk you right there with me.
Where I live if someone gives you a hug it's from the heart.
Yeah, for some reason parrots have to bite me. That's their job. I don't know why that is. They've nearly torn my nose off. I've had some really bad parrot bites.
Yeah, I'm a thrill seeker, but crikey, education's the most important thing.
You know, I'm Australian, and we have got the worst sense of humor. We are cruel to each other.
fr: brainyquote.com
—“It is all about perceived danger. In front of that crocodile I was in complete control. Absolute and complete control. That is my profession. I would be considered a bad parent if I didn’t teach my children to be crocodile savvy because they live here, they live in crocodile territory.” — On the 2004 controversy in which he was filmed holding his infant son while feeding a snapping crocodile:
—“To hear people say that it was a publicity stunt, that I’m just like Michael Jackson, well, it just tears me up. It makes me sick to my stomach to be compared in that way.” — On the same incident.
"I've worked with more dangerous snakes than anyone in the world and I've never been bitten. It's a gift."
"It's CROC savin' time!"
"My number one rule is to keep that camera rolling. Even if it's shaky or slightly out of focus, I don't give a rip!"
Now if I could find his quotes on family and love. Thanks Steve for being a great teacher! OOOps found some goooooood quotes!!!! Here they are!!!
on love:
About Steve's love for Terri: "For all his love of animals, Irwin’s first duty was to his US-born wife, Terri Raines, who appeared by his side from the very first episode of the Crocodile Hunter."
Source: Daily Telegraph
Terri Irwin, about their marriage: "We don't drink, we don't smoke, and we are actually in love and happily married. We love our little girl, we go home to each other at night, and we believe in what we are doing."
Source: Movies at About.com
Steve Irwin, about not wearing a wedding ring: “It’s dangerous. Working with wildlife, there’s always the chance of getting any sort of jewelry hooked up. Not only could I put my own life at risk, but also the animals we work to save. Terri and I love each other very much and she totally understands that in my line of work, I simply cannot wear one. Terri, also, for the same reason doesn’t wear any rings.”
Source: American Profile
Steve Irwin, about love at first sight: "He says that he saw her in the crowd, their eyes met and he forgot all about the croc that was trying to kill him. It was love at first sight and they were engaged four months later."
Source: American Profile
Terri Irwin: I'm the woman in front of the man, you know, behind every great woman there is a great man."
Source: Abc.net.au
Terri Irwin, on love at first sight: "I think because he's the first guy I met that I couldn't chase with a snake. He wasn't scared. It was very attractive. So I met Steve way back in 1991 when I went to Australia Zoo as an innocent tourist coming to Australia, visiting the country, went in and there's this guy in this zoo doing a crocodile demonstration talking about crocs the way I'd never heard before, you know like they're, they're really passionate lovers, wonderful mothers, and he desperately loved crocodiles. And I thought, what is with this guy? And then as he bent over to pick up some food for the croc, I went, what is with this guy? And when I came to Australia and met Steve, here was this like reptile man meets mammal woman, and it was fantastic. We just fell desperately in love."
Source: Abc.net.au
Steve Irwin, about their phone calls after they first met: "It's my turn, and the phone calls were all about, wildlife and lust. I mean we, we fell head over heels in love with each other so we'd quickly talk about wildlife and then the rest was you know, about that."
Source: Abc.net.au
fr: marrage.about.com
back to steve :
wikipedia
I think my path would have always gone back to or delivered me to wildlife. I think wildlife is just like a magnet, and it's something that I can't help.
Australian Story : "What Lies Beneath" (22 September 2003)
If something ever happens to me, people are gonna be like 'we knew a croc would get him!'
Biography for Steven Irwin (II) in The Internet Movie Database
Born a wildlife warrior, die a wildlife warrior.
Radio interview on Radio Alice (KLLC 97.3)
I have a deep-seated respect for parrots. As gifted as I am with all other wildlife, parrots have this uncanny desire to kill me. I'm not sure why, but they're like my kryptonite!
BBC Interview with Anwar Brett for movie "The Crocodile Hunter: Collision Course"
wikiquote.org
what fuels my very being
Friday, September 08, 2006
Exquisite!!!
moment captured : cornflower blue morning
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
what fuels my very being?
'What a journey my life has become!'
~ Steve Irwin
gave all
Monday, September 04, 2006
gave all ...
When I stand before God at the end of my life
I would hope that I would have not
a single bit of talent left and could say,
'I used everything you gave me.'
Erma Bombeck
look at this beauty
save blue pumpkins for me ...
On the other side of the vine the bush babies stem where they are being fed is rotting. I was examining one and the stem was so weak it released the bush baby in my hands. I am sooooo sad and discouraged.
These blue pumpkins are still green.... makes me nerveous that I haven't seen them go blue. Their time is short.... please keep for me...
The weather has cooled but the orange pumpkins go until October. Well, I just hoped too hard .. trying for something once again that was not meant to be...
mad chow : jarrahdales finally
"look at this beauty"
I can not believe he is gone and especially the morning after Father's Day. My last and favorite memory was watching Steve with his young daughter Bindi on the Oprah show. This has been a few years back but he just made me smile. Seeing the enthusiam and exuberance being passed on in his daughter was pure joy for me. I also love how he just oozed love for his wife and kids. More of that, please!
We would learn a great deal if we gave all the energy we have into our families, passions and dreams. Our world would surely change for the better and happiness would well up within our hearts.
Thank you, Terri and family for sharing your Steve with us.
SYDNEY, Australia (CNN) -- Steve Irwin, the TV presenter known as the "Crocodile Hunter," has died after being stung by a stingray in a marine accident off Australia's north coast.
Media reports say Irwin was snorkeling at Batt Reef, a part of the Great Barrier Reef about 9 miles (about 15 kilometers) from the town of Port Douglas, when the incident happened on Monday morning.
Irwin, 44, was killed by a stingray barb that pierced his chest, according to Cairns police sources.
Irwin was in the area to film pieces for a show called "Ocean's Deadliest" with Phillippe Cousteau, grandson of Jacques, Irwin's manager and friend John Stainton told CNN's "American Morning." But weather had prevented the crew from doing work for that program, said Stainton, so Irwin decided to do some softer features for a new children's TV show he was doing with his daughter, Bindi.
"He came over the top of a stingray that was buried in the sand, and the barb came up and hit him in the chest," said Stainton.
Ambulance officers confirmed they attended a reef fatality Monday morning off Port Douglas, according to Australian media.
Queensland Police Services also confirmed Irwin's death and said his family had been notified. Irwin was director of the Australia Zoo in Queensland.
He is survived by his American-born wife Terri and their two children, Bindi Sue, born 1998, and Robert (Bob), born December 2003.
"The world has lost a great wildlife icon, a passionate conservationist and one of the proudest dads on the planet," Stainton told reporters in Cairns, according to The Associated Press. "He died doing what he loved best and left this world in a happy and peaceful state of mind. He would have said, 'Crocs Rule!' "
Australia Prime Minister John Howard said he was "shocked and distressed at Steve Irwin's sudden, untimely and freakish death," according to AP. "It's a huge loss to Australia."
Irwin became a popular figure on Australian and international television through Irwin's close handling of wildlife, most notably the capture and relocation of crocodiles.
Irwin's enthusiastic approach to nature conservation and the environment won him a global following. He was known for his exuberance and use of the catch phrase "Crikey!"
"His message is really about conservation: He really wants to leave the world a better place for everybody," Animal Planet's Maureen Smith told CNN.com in April.
"It's unbelievable, really," Jack Hanna, the host of "Jack Hanna's Animal Adventure" and director emeritus of the Columbus (Ohio) Zoo, told CNN. "You think of Steve Irwin and you think 'invincible.' "
Hanna, a friend of Irwin's, noted that Irwin's persona of the Crocodile Hunter was no act. Irwin grew up around crocodiles, snakes and other animals at his parents' Queensland Reptile and Fauna Park and had been handling such creatures since he was a child.
"The guy lived his life this way," said Hanna. "It was how he was raised. You knew that this guy, from the time he was 8 or 9 years old, was working with crocodiles and snakes."
Though stingrays can be threatening, their sting -- usually prompted by self-defense -- is not often fatal. The bull ray that apparently stung Irwin was "a one-in-a-million thing," wildlife documentary maker Ben Cropp told TIME. "I have swum with many rays, and I have only had one do that to me."
"A wild animal is like a loaded gun -- it can go off at any time," Hanna told CNN. "You have to be careful of that." But, he added, it's not the animals who are inherently dangerous, but the way they may react around humans. "It's not fair to the animal. It's only using the defenses that God gave it," said Hanna.
In 2003, Irwin spoke to the Australian Broadcasting Corp.'s "Australian Story" television program about how he was perceived in his home country.
"When I see what's happened all over the world, they're looking at me as this very popular, wildlife warrior Australian bloke," he said, the ABC reported.
"And yet back here in my own country, some people find me a little bit embarrassing. You know, there's this ... they kind of cringe, you know, 'cause I'm coming out with 'Crikey' and 'Look at this beauty.' "
"He has left a legacy," Stainton told CNN. "That people do love some of the unloved animals like crocodiles and reptiles that people wanted to kill. He's actually put a position in their hearts for them. I want that to continue. ... I want people to really go out there and remember Steve Irwin for what he really was, which was a great conservationist, saving wildlife and actually promoting wildlife that people didn't love."
fr: CNN's full story
tributes for Steve Irwin
utopian father
Sunday, September 03, 2006
why we reach out ...
1) There is one thing that woman acknowledge more than men, where children and teenagers express it more than adults. It is LONELINESS.
2)Out of all religions Christianity is the only one where you can have a personal relationship with God.
paraphrase
My ears perked at how pervasive loneliness is. It is everywhere and in everyone. So as I look out at my world, I need to see the lonely bits in each person. My heart would be more empathic. No wonder our hearts are always yearning to connect and reach out to others. We want to love and be loved.
No wonder that with each stab of my loneliness, I press into my King of my heart...
What a Friend we have in Jesus,
all our sins and griefs to bear!
What a privilege to carry
everything to God in prayer!
O what peace we often forfeit,
O what needless pain we bear,
All because we do not carry
everything to God in prayer.
Have we trials and temptations?
Is there trouble anywhere?
We should never be discouraged;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Can we find a friend so faithful
who will all our sorrows share?
Jesus knows our every weakness;
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Are we weak and heavy laden,
cumbered with a load of care?
Precious Savior, still our refuge,
take it to the Lord in prayer.
Do your friends despise, forsake you?
Take it to the Lord in prayer!
In His arms He’ll take and shield you;
you will find a solace there.
Blessed Savior, Thou hast promised
Thou wilt all our burdens bear
May we ever, Lord, be bringing
all to Thee in earnest prayer.
Soon in glory bright unclouded
there will be no need for prayer
Rapture, praise and endless worship
will be our sweet portion there.
~Joseph M. Scriven 1855
'Utopian Father'
I just wanted to let you know about what happened the other day (last week actually). I was sitting and going through Ephesians when I just happened to glance across the page and get a glimpse at the word 'Father'. A few thoughts raced through my mind there and then and all of a sudden it hit me. The relationship we all have with God is one of a child to a father. Not just any father, but the utopian kind of father I always had in my mind. You know the one that I always wanted to have look out for me, and guide me, and be there with me when I needed him. It wasn't just theory either. It was a real understanding that my God is my Father, and He has always looked out for me and guided me. It may sound strange but I kind of felt foolish for not believing it earlier. In fact I felt quite humbled that I had been so hard in my heart so as not to accept it sooner.
~ preciousgift / aug 24, 2001
Unfortunately, a lot of sons and daughters have no fathers or poor examples of fathers. It is sad that they have no clear picture of God the Father. They missed out on what I got to have in my own life. { I love you, Dad! } Yet, as I got to experience a peer be the best dad he could to his teenagers, I began to see that it is within you. I could see him ache for a son making some poor choices. I could see him wrestle with care of bringing his girl home under his roof. I loved his laugh as he tease his kids. I love the romance he colored in his girl's life. I saw the mundame struggle to keep the money for home and life. I felt his hope for his kids to be happy and secure. All those fatherly feelings he had is more so with the Heavenly Father.
Yes, Utopian Father is a perfect description of God. What is it that you dream in a father? You have it in God.
Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in the Heavenly realms with every spiritual blessing in Christ. For He chose us in Him before the creation of the world to be Holy and blameless in His Sight. In love He predestined us to be adopted as His sons through Jesus Christ, in accordance with His pleasure and will— to the praise of His glorious grace, which He has freely given us in the One He loves. In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the Riches of God's grace that He lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding. And He made known to us the MYSTERY of His Will according to His good pleasure, which He purposed in Christ, to be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillment—to bring all things in heaven and on earth together under one head, even Christ.
In Him we were also chosen, having been predestined according to the plan of Him who works out everything in conformity with the purpose of His Will, in order that we, who were the first to hope in Christ, might be for the praise of His glory. And you also were included in Christ when you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation. Having believed, you were marked in Him with a seal, the promised Holy Spirit, who is a deposit guaranteeing our inheritance until the redemption of those who are God's possession—to the praise of His glory.
~ Ephesians 1:3-14
Saturday, September 02, 2006
color me tickled pink ...
Kate stumbled upon my blog and read romance (verb) . Now she is off coloring her life and her marriage in shades of green. Yippppppppeeeeeeeeee! That makes me so 'very happy lemon yellow'!
Another contrast this week was the 'gloom of misty grey' wondering if the words you say meaning anything at all. Then out of the 'sky blue' comes encouragement in splashes of 'key lime green'. She got it!
Go out in that rain with your white t-shirt and runner's shorts and jump in puddles. Imagine with each splash all different colors of paint swirling and spattering all over the place. Giggles, I'm keeping this visual!
Thank Awesome Creator for sending a splash of colorful hope at this time when I am sad over a marriage losing ground. Thank You. Huggers
prayer requirement ...
* 290 * How important is it to you to PRAY with your spouse?
If so, how do you start and nurture it?
Is it enough just to have a spiritual connection w/o prayer?
What value would prayer give your union?
I am making this a make or break issue when it comes to my future Mr Keeper. I am scared silly when it comes to divorce. If there is anything I can do to keep marriage flowing, rich, and full, I must do it.
Isn't marriage two people united into one unit? If my prayer life has enriched my relationship with my Heavenly Husbandman, why wouldn't it enrich a marriage when done together as one unit? Shouldn't you think of a marriage as one person? Sure you have your own personal dreams and you can keep them but when you get married, shouldn't you gain another set of dreams for the both of you? Isn't communication a key factor to a good marriage? What is prayer but communication?
takes one ...
Friday, September 01, 2006
personality vs privilege
From the book titled ‘Type Talk the 16 personality types that determine how we live, love, and work’ here are some statements that I found concerning my personality type that are not excuses, but rather explanations of behavior, outlook ... :
* Often seem aloof and sometimes argumentative, such behavior is simply the result of their attempt to stimulate the world around them.
*Learn by arguing, part of their continuing quest to understand the universe.
*’Friendly Discussion’ may be seen by others as hostile, even obnoxious behavior.
based on Myers-Briggs Personality Type Indicator / authors are Otto Kroger & Janet M Thuesen
Oh how this burned me to the core. I am shy by nature. It is my personality. As a child and a teenager, I tried but crashed and burned on trying to change myself into an outgoing person. I finally gave up because shyness is a part of what makes me ME.
Being shy gets a bad rap. No one sees you because it is like you are invisible and if they do see you it only a presumed surface. How many times have I heard ‘oh, she is so stuck up!’ What? No way! The poor girl is just quiet taking in all around her or she is just quaking in her tennis shoes!
I am quite glad to be shy. There is a lot of goodness in it like being able to truly listen. Shyness has also kept trouble at bay during my impressionable years. Being shy helped me from saying things that would get me into trouble. So as I saw the good parts, I began to exercise it and figured out how to flex my shy muscles into something more.
The biggest problem with shy is that people are uncomfortable around me or they say things like ‘she has issues with depression.’ I finally figured it out when Joy came to my rescue when I had a crash and burn in my life. Looking back I can now see that I took active steps to enable others to feel good about themselves around me. Especially at work I would notice that most people would just pass me without looking at me and by doing so they wouldn’t say anything to me. I am not good with striking up a conversation on a whim, so I just greeted with a very warm and animated hello or good morning. Some of them where very hard to crack but I soon found that most have returned my greeting with speech and eyes. They are feeling comfortable enough to engage me in conversation.
I consider myself ‘bubbly shy’ and I feel I am continually growing more full of the person I was created to be. I know without a doubt that others are more comfortable with my brand of shy. What I am learning is that you cannot say it is my personality so deal with it. Rather it is a privilege to engage others with Joy, Love, Peace, Comfort, and Tenderness.
So I am sorry but I canNOT be a cheerleader to anger. I think I can say that I understand the anger thing. It liked to cage my shy. Anger likes to take residence when you are out of sorts with your world. It is a control thing. So be the one to control your anger and your personality. Take that controversial part of your personality and figure out how to allow others to feel comfortable around you. Anger is not a privilege nor is it a right. You must tame it for the good or you will grow to be a very lonely person. To be an adult is to do better when you know better. I still have a long way to go ...
flat tire ...
what if I refuse to receive sour milk?
places & their names
Love the name but funny no Sweet Home, Alabama!
* Barefoot Bay, FL *
MMM, bet that place has some nice sand!
* Sheboygan, WI & Schenectady, NY *
Love how they sound bt good ol' Schenectady can get mighty twisted on the tongue!
* Toad Pasture Rd *
Now that is a visual!