Thursday, June 30, 2005

Sing to me!

I am intrigued with those male country singers who touch your heart with such wonderful love ballads. Are they the man of their songs? Do they really love like that? Are they willing to allow a female into their world? Are they willing to 'make memories of the us?'

When I am driving those country roads with the windows down and my hair whipping in the wind listening to a yummy country boy sing his heart to me, it is a nice moment to get lost in. Then reality honks waking me.

It seems that people only believe in nightmares now days. A good woman or a good man to fall in love with is just a myth. A strong marriage lasting over 50 years is rare. There is no belief of a passionate marriage.

I must keep believing that maybe the man in the country love song will be reality. To be love outloud would be a dream come true. Doubt is a negative attitude. Negative attitude is a rejection of faith. Faith is Positive Force.

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

cure for doubt = TASTE

Do you doubt that God is mindful of your welfare? Do you doubt that God cares about what your passions? Do you doubt that God cares about what you do for a living to provide for your family? Do you doubt that God cares about your everyday emotions? Do you doubt God can love someone such as yourself? Do you just plain doubt that God would care about the simpliest things of your life?

I was blown away when a loved one voiced their doubt and I have been struggling ever since trying to capture the question. Matt. 6: 25-34 tells us not to worry because God feeds the birds of the air and clothes the lilies of the field. Are you not much more valuable than they? v26b. But really this is about worry and not doubt. Another verse began to stir me.

Do you remember your parents telling you just try the green veggies you just might like them? You tried it slowly with caution. Then you found that you loved the green beans. They were nothing like the mushy green balls of poison!

"O taste & see that the Lord is Good!" What ? Why is this verse about tasting? Tasting is about food. But wait..... What is that feeling you have right before you try something new? Hesitation? Doubt? Then you take that taste everything around you shuts down as you start to taste the new food. Your senses start to kick in as you ponder and savor the morsel. Not bad! You find it good.

"O taste and see that the Lord is Good! Blessed is the man who trusts and takes refuge in HIM." Ps 34:8 God has many promises. Whenever you feel that doubt that God really isn't mindful of you, taste and see that the Lord is Good. "God so loved 'you' " (John 3:16). His love means He is mindful of you and your welfare. Think of it as if you were a father. A father loves his children. He is mindful of his children's welfare. Are they fed? Are they living healthy? Are they happy? How are their wings? Are they catching their dreams? A father will do everything possible to provide for his children's welfare. Just imagine our Heavenly Father is 70 x 7 more mindful of our most simpliest concerns in our life journeys.

"Blessed is the man who TRUSTS and takes REFUGE in Him." When you taste you are giving in and trusting. Now tell me what the feeling is after you have fully tasted a fine chocolate? A bubbly satisfaction!!!!! What a happy safe feeling. You just tasted to see how God is mindful of your welfare. Now you have a smile of satisfaction filling up your soul. Sitting in God's lap safe and secure is my best chocolate to you. "The Lord your God is with you. He is Mighty to save. He will take great delight in YOU. He will quiet you with His Love. He will rejoice over you with singing."

Still in doubt? Hesitating? Go for it. Just Taste!
" To enjoy the flavors of life take big bites "
monster unbelief

Monday, June 27, 2005

I am Sam

I have watched all three movies of the Lord of the Rings this past May. I have such a kinship with Sam. I know acutely know how he feels. I know what it is like to be made harmony and I know what it takes to work along side the melody. I know what feels like to be tossed out. I am a Sam.

My favorite parts of Sam was at the end of movie two where he made his speech of not leaving Froto. And in movie three Sam proves his metal by saying, ‘’ I may not be able to take your burden, but I can sure carry you.’’ My insides screamed as my tears flowed at the impact of his actions.

Sam never left Froto's side no matter how many times Froto told him to get. What do you do when someone tell's you to leave and treats you with no value? Do you stick by? Persistent and enduring love is a drop contining wearing down the other's resistance. Always proving
unconditionally that you love and value that person.

Do you hear what I am saying? ‘’ I may not be able to take your burden, but I can sure carry you.’’

one player = no game

Suppose a chess player only had one piece to move across the board ....
Suppose the captain only had one warrior on the battle ground....
Suppose God only had one man .......

How could the chess player ever win the game?
How could the captain ever win the battle?

God wouldn’t need to tell the story .. yet we try to fight this big bad world all by our lonesome....... crazy...

Sunday, June 26, 2005

a BEWITCHing tale....

Ahhhhhh, I loved Bewitched. I about flew off my movie theater seat when I heard Will Farrow's character state something about not BENCHING the star player.

How offen does the male get so absorbed in his issues or goes to his cave and leaves his female partner out in the cold. This movie showed both sides how the self-absorbed male can cause messes going it alone or how enchanted his life can be if he invites others in on the journey.

Girls are not made to sit on the sidelines rather they have their part in this amazing adventure called life. Adventures are more fun together. Go get bewitched!

money & your life


    3 little guidelines that will impact your life
    1. 10% tithe to God
    2. keep a sabbath
    3. keep your work clean from vice


on a personal level
I have always grown up with keeping a tithe. True, it isn't hard for me to put aside money for God, but I know I was carried through some hard money times.

When I moved out of my parents home and set up my own residence, I was not sure how I was going to manage. Interesting as I was checking my bank account, I had just enough money to provide food and shelter. No, not much was going into savings, but I was blessed. Then when I lost my job, I was worried that I would have to give up my car and my place to live. As each month passed by and no job, I pinching pennies and noticed that even though my savings was going down it never went past my point of concern. Six months in the manpower job became part time then nine months in it became a full time job. God provided my needs.

I have always grown up with keeping a sabbath. It is a day reserved to going to church and spending time with family. What I cherish most is that my dad does not mow on Sundays. Even though work is good for you, a sabbath is for resting and enjoying it. For me it is knowing what true rest is. Suppose it gives you time to focus on some personal passions. For me it is reading, painting, and writing. I chose what my day of rest looks like to me.

I use to have a job at the mall in a bookstore. It meant I had to work on Sundays and sell playboy. To me this was a vice I did not feel right for me even though I do love books. From this experience I wanted to make sure I moved on and choose a better job suited to my values. I could name a few other vices that I personally would stay away from when it comes to jobs but vices are personal decisions. But if you name a vice that is in your job, it is going to take faith to step away. You will be surprised at how God will reward you for choosing Him over the money. He does own a 'cattle on a thousand hills.' He has rewarded me.


on a more global level
I keep my ear tuned to global issues and global feelings. I heared lashings out about how the US government could do more in the Tsunami Relief. I hear boostings of how this country and that country pledge this amount or that amount. Then I hear how the US citizens gave and I was proud. I have this feeling that European thought is that maybe if the US would give and give until their pockets are dry, their private hope that we would somehow fail or fall into ruin. Americans just cannot do right. Giving is a mystery. What you give, you recieve usually pressed down and overflowing. It is an unmeasureable truth.

Another thing globally that bothers me is the Live 8 and One movement. They are going after the heads of governments to ask for money for Africa whether it is relieve debt or giving more money. Not opposed to helping out Africa and the proverty state it is in. I am moved but only feel the stir to do something when asked with positive energy about it. But why are we asking the governments to provide the money, let us the people make our statement. Why not let the people change the world and our governments through giving? Why not let positive change stir our world?

How about a different look at our world? Social Entrepreneurs is a new concept to change our world. What is a social entrepreneur?
A social entrepreneur identifies and solves social problems on a large scale. Just as business entrepreneurs create and transform whole industries, social entrepreneurs act as the change agents for society, seizing opportunities others miss in order to improve systems, invent and disseminate new approaches and advance sustainable solutions that create social value.

Unlike traditional business entrepreneurs, social entrepreneurs primarily seek to generate "social value" rather than profits. And unlike the majority of non-profit organizations, their work is targeted not only towards immediate, small-scale effects, but sweeping, long-term change.It is someone who sees a need and figures out a formula to help others succeed.


As He looked up, Jesus saw the rich putting their gifts into the temple treasury. He also saw a poor widow put in two very small copper coin. "I tell you the truth," He said, "this poor widow has put in more than all the others. All these people gave their gifts out of their wealth; but she out of her proverty put in all she had to live on." Luke 21: 1 - 4

Saturday, June 25, 2005

perfected through the journey of life...

"And the God of all Grace who calls you to His Eternal Glory in Christ, after you hae suffered a little while, will Himself restore you and make you strong, firm, and steadfast. (perfected) To Him be the power for ever and ever. " 1 Pet 5 : 10 & 11



You have seen the arch of heaven as it spans the plain: glorious
are its colours, and rare its hues. It is beautiful, but, alas,
it passes away, and lo, it is not. The fair colours give way to
the fleecy clouds, and the sky is no longer brilliant with the
tints of heaven.

It is not established. How can it be? A glorious show made up of
transitory sun-beams and passing rain-drops, how can it abide?
The graces of the Christian character must not resemble the
rainbow in its transitory beauty, but, on the contrary, must be
stablished, settled, abiding. Seek, O believer, that every good
thing you have may be an abiding thing.

May your character not be a writing upon the sand, but an
inscription upon the rock! ... May you be rooted and grounded in love. May your
convictions be deep, your love real, your desires earnest.

May your whole life be so settled and established, that all the
blasts of hell, and all the storms of earth shall never be able
to remove you. But notice how this blessing of being "stablished
in the faith" is gained. The apostle's words point us to
suffering as the means employed-"After that ye have suffered
awhile."

It is of no use to hope that we shall be well rooted if no rough
winds pass over us. Those old gnarlings on the root of the oak
tree, and those strange twistings of the branches, all tell of
the many storms that have swept over it, and they are also
indicators of the depth into which the roots have forced their
way. So the Christian is made strong, and firmly rooted by all
the trials and storms of life. Shrink not then from the
tempestuous winds of trial, but take comfort, believing that by
their rough discipline God is fulfilling this benediction to
you.
from Charles Spurgeon's Morning & Evening Devotions for the Morning of June 25

I could not say it better than Spurgeon. Life is so precious. Each of us are given gifts to live out our lives to the fullest. Remember to look beyound the surface the Great Author is the undercurrent. Enjoy the Ride of a Lifetime.

Friday, June 24, 2005

"To look beyond the surface....."

If you can get your hands on the Australian Geographic, you must turn the page to 116 of the Apr - Jun 2005 issue. Here you will meet Jol Fleming.

He grew up among Walpirri and Warramungu Aboriginal people in Central Australia and learned their traditions, rituals and much about the desert country itself. Out 'there', he says, he developed an ability, similar to that common among Aboriginal people, to be able to look beyond the surface. "Many people tell me 'it's just more bloody scrub, desert, and nothing else'. To me, it's got special character. But you have to be able to see it. For that you have to have 'real' eyes, not eyes that are painted on."

The article goes on to say: He's a 4WD instructor, but he is not like the others. He is a quadriplegic. He was in a car crash which broke his back leaving him an imcomplete quadriplegic which means his spinal cord is damaged but not severed and he has regained some use of his hands and arms.

Back in Alice Springs, Jol started to take a new look at what life offered him. "I tried to adopt the attitude of don't worry about what you used to do, worry about what you can do, " he says.

He founded the Alice Springs Off-Road Racing Club, started his own automotive spare parts business, develped the Finke Desert Race into a combined motorbike and car race and kick-started the Central Australian Drag Racing Association. As if that wasn't enough, Jol became a fully licensed driving instructor - probably the first quadriplegic in Australia to do so.

That is Living!

happiness vs. JOY

God is all about Extreme Makeovers. Instead of happiness He wants us to find Joy in Him. Look at Him. He is our Window. We are like moons reflecting borrowed light.

I found "The Joy of the Lord is my Strengh" (Neh 8:10). You have to lose something or someone or have this eternal ache to understand how empty you feel. When everything and everyone is inconsistant, all you want is something solid. When all you feel is rain and wind haunt your soul, you just want to feel the sun again on your face. You have to let go. Yes, let go.

Seek His face. Invite Him on your life journey. Let Him lead. Watch how He provides each day for you. He provides you all of His nature for your enjoyment. Declare your gratitude for all the little things you have in your life. Declare victory in each little success that comes your way. Most importantly declare His Attributes. My most favorite attribute is that He is ever constant. Wait, I cannot really list my top favorite attribute because He is all Good. But I do have another precious God-Attribute to share. He is a very Wild God, but He is such an Artist and Author. All creation shows off His Handiwork and to think and know that He had thought of me to design me and fashion my life journey for my personal growth and beauty.

When you "Trust the Lord and do good," when you "Dwell in the Lord and feed on His Faithfulness," and when you "Delight in the Lord, He will take care of your heart" (Ps. 37: 3 & 4).

pursuit of happiness....

Watching the craze of cutting up God-given bodies to look younger and thinner all for happiness has me wondering. Parents are providing their daughters with boob jobs for a graduation gift because they want their daughters to be happy. Their words exactly. Daughters choose boob jobs over a car because they want to be happy. Women of all ages will choose surgery overseas to look beautiful over the health of their own bodies and the health of their families all for happiness.

Suppose I choose to take care of the beautiful body that God gave me? I understand image and self-confidence. I had 'buck teeth' and I had bad eyesight. We all have imperfection. But what if we choose to pursue a more healthy and balanced happiness? Why not choose to take on the journey and the adventure of life? Isn't Life about hard work? Isn't hard work the real MAKEOVER?

Thursday, June 23, 2005

'all by myself' 'i walk alone'

Even though I believe I was meant to be a great harmony to a great melody, I commit to never wasting these single moments. I commit to dream big and live big. In the still my quiet voice will be strong.

What is Love?

Woohoo!! My parents have been married 39 years. As their child I got to see them endure. Endurance is about weathering the storms and the adventures. It is a very good word.

Waking up each day to choose each other over again to take on life has got to be a true gift. Being able to witness their enduring love, I see my parents in a very happy and healthy relationship which gives them strong wings. It is a hope I know is me and that I too can succeed in a love relationship of my own. I know it is in my 'jeans'. I feel it stir deeply through me.

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

what is marriage anyways?

Why do you want to be married? What is marriage to you? And do you really need to be "married"?

Marriage is a creation of God between a man and a woman. If you don't believe in God, you don't need marriage. If you are of the same sex, you don't need marriage. All I am saying is that this notion of marriage is created by God and if you don't agree with all of it, you shouldn't do it. It comes down to what you believe. If you don't believe, than don't fake it.

pure Genus.... job descriptions.....

There is man who is the warrior side of God and there is woman the beauty side of God. Man is made for adventure, but woman doesn't want to be left out. There seems to be a calling in her heart as well. ‘’ The charter for adventure is given to both man and woman. it will take both of them to sustain life. and they both need to fight together.’’ (from Wild at Heart by John Eldridge)

They have different job descriptions. The man’s heart calls him to explore, to build, to conquer. The woman’s heart calls her to create, to inspire, to energize. Man is all nature and all fierce. Woman is all nurture and all passion. When a man and a woman can come together, they can reflect God. They are like the Moon who borrows light.

Man serves fatherhood well when he participates in his children’s lives. Children most often recall what and when their father participated in their lives. Woman serves motherhood well when she pays attention to her children. How often do you see kids and adults say "hi, mom" when the tv camera is pointed in their direction? Man gives. Woman invites. When a father and a mother come together, they can reflect the borrow Light into their children.

Isn't God a pretty cool Creator. I cannot fathom His intelligence ... far exceeds my own. Amazing that in marriage you can find God.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

BELIEF!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am very much a melancholy and every time I doubt, I say, ‘’Dwell in possibility.’’ It gives me a small burst of hopeful energy and it carries me. It changes my eyesight.

I tried this phrase on ‘’ You are what you BELIEVE not what you want to be .‘’ I came out , looked in the mirror, and saw something bloom inside me.

You cannot ask someone to believe what you say or do unless you believe it yourself. Belief is passionate. All it takes is a little spark of belief. Take heart ! You do not have to have much when it roars to a blooming fire.

Do you have a dream? Yet, you doubt that you can ever make it true? Doubt is a negative attitude. Negative attitude is a rejection of Faith. Ouch!

Conquer your meloncholy with dwelling in the possibility. Go catch your dream.

curse of Eve

I know what women do to fail their womanhood. They nag, boss, and try to change and control the people in their lives. I feel strongly and I always train my brain that when I get into those areas that I put myself straight. Whoever is frustrating me has their journey to make ... their holy mud ... their sacred learning ground. God has it under control.

I feel like I am honoring my womanhood yet I feel punished & ostracized like I was the woman who ate the apple. I guess this is the curse of Eve. I won’t give up. I will always honor the holy mud. (Giggles) I just should remember to wear it like the blue paint Mel did in Braveheart. (Puts a grin on my face ... and a roar in depth of my voice...)

‘’ You teach people how to treat you.’’

I had found this an interesting quote. One that makes me step back and look at it over and over again. It seems dangerous if you don't go about it right but this haunts me especially when I don't like how I am treated. I feel I am doing wrong or guilty especially when I give heart and soul into a relationship. Maybe again one of my choices is to not waste beauty.....

Monday, June 20, 2005

"HE'S JUST NOT THAT INTO YOU" (all grown up ... a mirror truth)

A big push that is changing the single women of America is this book called ‘’He's Just Not That Into You" by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo . Of course Greg has been on Oprah not just once but twice. The women ask the same question dressed up in a thousand different ways, but the same message is HE IS JUST NOT INTO YOU. It seems to take women a while to hear the message, but it sinks in slowly. And it doesn't hurt like it use to. In fact there is a bit of confidence that begins to grow.

The second part of the message is "DON’T WASTE PRETTY". On a personal level as an observer, the theory works. The rejected woman use to walk by the mirror and say what is wrong with me? Now she can walk by the mirror and say, "Something is wrong with him. I got it going on. If he doesn't want to be near this beauty than so be it." She just stoped giving him excuses. Again, growth is slow but well worth it. Love your new confidence.

Another qoute from Oprah: ‘’ Believe what the person is saying to you the first time.’’

Yes, believe him the first time. "He is just not that into you if he disappears." (sucks in a deep breath) Don't disappear from a vibrant life that you have. It is tasting life more not less. Get busy and do what makes you passionate. (wipes tears) The mirror's reflection will begin to reflect all the inside beauty outward. You will glow. You will have to keep nuturing yourself in this growth always, but it gets better. MORE NOT LESS.




She's just not that into ...
She's just not that into inconsistancy. She's just not that into being a doormat. She's just not that into being benched in the journey of life. She's just not that into being used for her beauty. She's just not that into her brains being overlooked. She's just not that into still being considered like Eve cursed because she ate the apple. She's just not that into being shallow. She's just not that into being lonely.

She will have consistancy. She will be hard worker. She will journey. She will be beautiful inside and out. She will love and be confortable in her brain. She will be the woman God wants and designed her to be. She will be deep. She will love herself enough alone if she has to because she really is not alone. She walks with her Warrior God.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Value & Worth

I remember a moment from my childhood. My chore was to clean the sinks. My mom after many times of a job not done well said, "You will make time to do what is important to you." (or something close to this) These words bothered me and have stayed with me. Funny because I now understand now twenty some years later. It is knowing what is valuable. It is moving heaven and earth to show it.

If you are not savoring your life....
if you feel like a windup toy that is wound too tightly ...
10% solution is for you.
(check out "Living your Life Out Loud" - by Salli Rasberry & Padi Selwyn)

We all have 100% to deal with in our lives: 10% is important, 90% unimportant. The secret to a happy, productive, and rich life is to deal with the 10% and let the 90% slip. You won't feel so stretched thin and the important people in your life will feel more value. You will feel in control of your life. You will be working from the God-given passions you have. Wow, what an interesting way to destress your life.

Who would touch you to move heaven and earth to find them if they fell off the face of the earth?
What passion makes a fire in the pit of your stomach that you must do something about?
What positive action are you taking?

the Great Loss of thinking languages of males and females

workaholic fathers = overloving-their-kids mothers

Suppose we put men who get lost in their work all in the name of taking care of and providing well for their family on the same level of woman who get lost in ‘loving’ their children over their men ....? Isn’t this really one and the same?

Work does not keep you warm at night. Children take flight. Who is going to stand by you when work and children are gone? If you benched your teammate, you sure she is going to come out to play when you come calling?

It is good to provide well for your family and it is good to love your kids. But don't forgot to balance your life.

the shove...

I was on this rope ladder bridge with another. We were holding on to each other working our way across the raging water below. Things seemed to be going well. No real panic .. then a shove and there I was falling into the violent waters below. I could not see the person on the bridge; the water was too much. I could not hear the person; the water was too loud. All I knew was the Man who walks on water pulled me in close to His chest and we were floating down river safely even though the waters were swirling. I could hear a firm heartbeat pounding in my ear. I knew I was safe but I didn't know what happened to the person on the bridge. I was sad....

LookOut Rock

Allies

It is extremely important that allies communicate with one another. Australians are America’s allies in Iraq. If the Australians failed to tell the Americans where they were located in the heat of the battle ... friendly fire would cause injury and death. If the Australians got attacked and they decided to hole up and nurse their wounds .. heal on their own... and not make communication back to the Americans that they needed medical treatment, certain death would come....

Sorry, I am using country names here only for metaphor issues. I am not making a statement on war but on relationships. Relationships are about teams and allies. Life can make war on you everyday. If you cannot trust your allies in times of need and require help, who can you trust? If you cannot seek solace from your mate and finding a cave to heal wounds is your best form of recovery, what a lonely way to travel.

Humans are social beings made to journey with others and not alone. No matter how strong we train ourselves to be, loneliness is truly a monster who loves to devour and waste our very souls and minds to nothing.

losing & not giving up....

I lost a major battle and I have made a feisty peace with it. Meaning I had this fire in the pit of my stomach for a very long time. I looked at it every way possible trying to see where I stood wrong and maybe I could take the other side’s position. I could not. I challenged my thinking and I stood even firmer. I had one small boost from someone who did credit my thinking but everyone around me had no fight .. no passion. They were willing to lie down and let it pass. This enraged me.

‘’No passion , certain death ‘’ is so engrained in the depths of my being. A song that has started to haunt me is ‘’Never Surrender’’ by Corey Hart . I just cannot just give up... it is death.