communication needs ...

Dear Heavenly Father,
I was reading over the cave stuff that happens to a man. I am pretty sure that I really messed it all up back in '05. I knew that he was the type of guy that was never far from his cave. I also knew that once he was gone, it was highly doubtful that he would come back. I thought I knew the 'right things' to do. I failed miserably. I even had sworn off self-help books then and as I am tackling the male communication, I throw up my hands. How in the world is a female and male ever going to properly communicate with all the special needs each one has yet are so incapable of giving to each other? I even see the 'miscommunication' in my own parents at times! They are truly committed to each other yet they miss those connection needs.

So I throw up my hands and give it all up to You. I cannot go unlearn all that self-help and even as I contemplate throwing it all out the window, I can't seem to because there is some wisdom here. Dear Creator of Marriage, show me the way. As I learn to speak male, I want Your Hands and Your Paths to rise up and meet me. I will follow. I will also let go. I don't want to be burden anymore by past mistakes and future ones that I will be sure to make. I want to be humble and seek for forgiveness when I make a misstep (if I have to make them mistakes - grr!) For now, I will seek Your Word for communication skills - You do say to pursue love ...

Thank You for making males and females. Thank You for communication needs of each. Thank You that You made marriage and that You are in the union of the perfect matches.

~always seeking contentment in Your Paths for me
Your little one

''You seem so peaceful ...''

and this came from a guy who is a complainer and who isn't convinced there is a God. I was shocked and didn't say a word about peace. I did engage him on stuff that was bothering him and tried to let him know I was listening.

I am tenacious at heart and tend to let the sparks fly. I also retreat into a quiet zone when I am anxious. But of late I have been trying very hard to be more sage. So hearing a comment about looking like I am peaceful is very welcomed.

I still run hot and I don't want to lose that. Yet, when I read the Bible and dig into the promises, I have this deep seated knowledge that all is going to be ok. By claiming and declaring God-Promises and God-Attributes, peace does come over me.

I have always hated the idea of letting go - that comes because I am tenacious. Letting go has always meant giving up. But when you hold onto God and the world lets go, I feel very safe. It is like skydiving but way better because the feeling is more like a bubble around you as you are skydiving. You know the landing is all in God's Hands.

Romans 8:35-39
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter.

Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come,
Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

What comfort to know that nothing will keep God away from me. He is relentless in His pursuit of me. He a constant never leaving me to fend for myself. Nor does He let me get in my own way. Pretty safe in His very capable Hands!! {happy sigh}

perception or empathy ...

Is perception and empathy the same thing or are they different?
Quite an easy answer. Perception is what you see out of your own eyes. Empathy is walking in another's shoes, taking on a path not your own, and feeling something totally foreign.

I am sick of hearing her talk about perception like it is my own fault. She openly admits that she is really talking to a mirror and yet she spouts off how it is the my perception at fault when it doesn't even fit! Perception isn't my fault. I do feel that I err on empathy. Perception is really a form of judgement! Something believers must not do. Sure they need to be wise but they know that all people and actions will be judged by the Almighty God. Why not let Him? Perception is a waste of time and energy. Good grief woman! Let it go and leave me be! Talking to her is a waste of time. So steer clear, girl!

to speak with intent ...

Why is it that I open my mouth around her and kick myself for doing so. She is always telling me how to think and do all the while saying that she is really talking into the mirror. Is it her way of saying I'm sorry with coming out and doing so?

Anyways, my mouth just unhinged and I was totally irritated with self! Back to Holy Word gym. Train, train, train... Got to cut the flab and maybe my mouth can stay shut and not share the family jewels aka pearls!

If I can't keep the mouth shut, keep it simple, short, and sweet.

If I can't keep it at a wicked smile and an-up-to-good gleam in the eye, then ask a question! OOOOOoo, she could just unhinge and spill the core.

If I can't share the precious pearls, then find a Bible Word picture and share that!

ARgh! Just keep my mouth shut please!!!

crown {n}

If a wife is a crown of her husband ...

Proverbs 12:4 'An excellent wife is the crown of her husband ...'

and if God has crowned us with lovingkindness & tender mercies,

Psalms 103:4 (God) Who crowns you with lovingkindness and tender mercies ...

then shouldn't a wife be a crown of lovingkindness and tender mercies for her husband?

I do like this picture because I when I read Proverbs 12:4, I wondered what the crown entail besides royalty. What better royalty than to bend low enough to spread lovingkindness and tender mercies!

no wood - no fire ...

I've been battling my attitude at work. The list of unpaid invoices are mounting and I get no info from purchasing to why they are holding onto them. I have to contend with the phone calls. It is really bothering me especially when I ask and all I get is 'I haven't gotten to that yet' or 'I don't like to problem solve.'

I am sorry but life is about problem solving. It might not be your strength but you have to figure out how to do things better if you are truly living. Ok. I better stop ranting and get on with the real issue at hand - my downward attitude.

I needed something to hold onto to keep my focus on Jesus Christ. Proverbs 26:20-21 can be summed up as 'No wood. No fire.' Every time I felt the my insides boil, I took a breath and muttered 'no wood - no fire.' Do not dwell. Do not let her see you sweat either. This is not eternal. It will not be on the books. Only me and my actions will be on that book.

Give your best work. Smile. Be content in all things. Delight and savor. And most of all come into His courts with Thanksgiving and Praise. No angry fists here...

Fleas again ...

Gotta spray the yard. It is a must. The fleas haven't been there in the past but they are there now.

Gotta use a citrus or apple vinegar mister on the pet. Or dilute their water with 50/50 apple cider!

Gotta sprinkle the furniture and carpet with salt overnight and then sweep up. I am having a hard time going over there and sitting on that sofa.

Gotta use that hotspot oil. Fleas will run from Eucalyptus.

Gotta figure out how to use the Lavender Mom and Dad has growing. Do you boil it it in water then use it to spray dog and bedding etc?

Hmmm, much to search and much to do!

kids stuff ...

Found some things to teach children and again I am a should-have-been-a-mother-but don't-what-to! I know it has to do with my passion for learning.

It is about putting a twist on the 'I Spy' game. You go about life and have your kids 'I Spy someone who needs...' You talk about it and then do something about it. Suppose they notice a neighbor is sick and then you have them decide what they need. Maybe they will come up with a homemade card complete with crayons or maybe they want to take homemade chicken soup. They do it. I was listening to a mother tell how she did it and I really could see that by doing this you are creating a future adult that won't be shy about caring for needs and encouraging others.

Another thing I heard about was a memorization program of sorts for kids. I would want to start with my kids when they were young. Plus, I would use they ways of keeping it memorized. If they were visual, then that is how we would do it. It would not just be memorizing rather it would be talking about what we memorized and how to use it.

Here is a list to I would start with:
* 10 commandments
*Fruit of the Spirit
*23rd Psalms
*Think on these things

I would then add to the list by how my child grows and what that child is struggling with.

lovingkindness {v}

Did you know there is a difference between kindness and lovingkindness? I guess I never really put any thought into until today after listening to J Vernon Mcgee.

Loving kindness = kindness with a little extra special topping.

J Vernon Mcgee had an example of a little girl's definition. The little girl said ''Kindness is when my mom makes me a peanut butter sandwich but lovingkindness is my mom adding my most favorite jam to my peanut butter sandwich.''

Pretty cool! Amazing that this word is created by the Loving God. He loves us so much that He had to have something extra special to add to kindness for His beloved children.

over the 'fence' ...

She is a smoker and sometimes she isn't herself where her speech isn't on par with her thinking. However, I truly enjoy her. She is friendly and looks out for me. She is my neighbor.

Today she was sitting out on the front step for a smoke when I came home. We talked. What was interesting was the conversation about church. What started the conversation was her asking what church I went to and how I looked nice when I go. I told her my church and I added that it was for the time being. Her comment was that it was hard to find a church these days. Then she gave me an account of a church that she went to that served coffee and they where sitting around. She said you can feel if God is there and He wasn't. I was taking it all in and brimming with questions I wanted to ask but didn't. However, I think know the answer - she was missing the reverence for God. It was gone because all the causal - the very causal that the churches have resorted to bring in the lost. I thought this was quite an interesting tidbit - a very sad tidbit.

Our conversation wandered on towards food and she offered me a cucumber and a tomato. I love fresh veggies and was very appreciative. What I really loved most was I got a peek of her apartment. Very simple but she loves the color red. She has some really nice splashes going on in her kitchen. Now I know what to paint for her! That makes me excited. Wow! What a cool way to top off my day!

family jewels ...

A believer must protect the family jewels. No kidding. The family jewels are pearls.

Do not give dogs what is sacred;
do not throw your pearls to pigs.
If you do, they may trample them under their feet,
and then turn and tear you to pieces.
~ Matthew 7:6

So what is scared? What are the pearls? Most definitely is would be my salvation and my love relationship with God. I get very defiant when it comes to people telling me what I should do when I struggle with some learning. It usually is someone I don't trust whether it is an unbeliever or a believer who isn't really listening.

My hackles rise when I hear one of my family members give their good bits to someone like a pastor and have them come back with frustration in their hearts because the 'pastor' has thrown 'it' back in their face. First is that God never ever states in His Love Letter anything about being discouraged. He is always saying to be encouraged or be of good courage. Deflated is not to be a part of a believer's life. Second is that when you offer up your inner most stuff to someone whether or not you really look up to this person, your actions say you do. So if this 'pastor' keeps throwing it back instead of listening and finding ways to encourage then you are throwing your pearls to the pigs. I don't care if he is a pastor or not. Pigs are like the fool in Proverbs 18:2 - 'A fool has no delight in understanding, but in expressing his own heart.'

In the presence of God and of Christ Jesus, who will judge the living and the dead, and in view of his appearing and his kingdom, I give you this charge: Preach the Word; be prepared in season and out of season; convince, rebuke and encourage--with great patience and careful instruction. For the time will come when men will not put up with sound doctrine. Instead, to suit their own desires, they will gather around them a great number of teachers to say what their itching ears want to hear. 2 Timothy 4:1-3

Yes, there is convincing, rebuking, but there is also encouraging. I feel that if you are harping on one you really missed the truth. You must have balance. You must listen. You must do your homework in the Word as well. My ear has been on the ground. I think one family member has his nose to the ground checking to see if the paster has itching ears. I call that a Truth Defender and it is not a pleasant job. Unfortunately, the girls in this family just want church not to be so hard and difficult. But these are the times ... and us girls are trying to figure out how to encourage the men in the family...

dreams ...

Watching the swimming last night was a boost to keep going for my dreams. Dara Torres said 'Don't put an age limit on your dreams.' Then of course you had Michael Phelps who believes anything is possible. Talk about conviction.

So it is time to fuel up and start making some real changes in my life. Start firming up my strengths and start getting into shape instead of wistfully wishing. Maybe in two years, I will look back here and say 'I did it.' 41 is just a marker and nothing more.

Here are a few wishes I want to turn into dreams come true:
* a book preferably published and well received
* a nice two story home with a basement and garage (bike to be welcomed! & herbs too!)
* well organized
* time to be creative in painting on glass and looming

I am not putting a man on that list because I cannot make this wish come true. That is in God's very capable Hands. If He wishes it for me, it is in His command. In the meantime I come into His Courts with thanksgiving and praise.

I do have to acknowledge that my wishes are also in God's hands because He goes before me and will be with me. He will never leave me nor forsake me. I will not be afraid. I will not be dismayed. (Deut 31:8) So I will live my life abundantly and use what I have to its fullest. No time to waste.

good bye old friend ...

I awoke with the sad feeling that my bike does not fit in here at my apartment. My place is toooo small. I have no garage nor a shed. I have spent many thoughts on how to keep the bike here. I've come up short. It has always been in the back of my mind that I need to make room for my dear friend. Now with times more tight in the gas area, it just seemed logical.

I decided to try it out. I have to take it up some stairs which is not to big of deal but getting it through the door of my place is tricky. It cannot stay in the doorway area because the door will bang into it and you have to be super skinny and if I had people come over it is just a nuisance. If I keep it in the kitchen where I have a bit more space, it would become cramped when I had projects that need space like drying clothes or even my passions like painting glass.

I even thought of hanging it somewhere like high up and out of reach but cannot because there is no real place and you know I rent. I thought of storing out in the hall but not a good idea. I have thought of everything - even the option of another place.....

So sadly, I must make the decision of taking it back to my parents. I so wanted to have my bike to go riding for exercise and for mind uplift. It is very freeing to be able to hop on a bike and go. It is different than a car when you can use it for recreation. I still haven't decided to make it work for picking up small items at the store. Oh well, ....

not lost ...

''All that wander is not lost.''
~Tolkien

After having mental gymnastics over 'people telling what to do', I remembered this quote and I felt like shouting. I am a seeker - a wanderer of sorts. I do not seek fleshy answers. I have this insatiable appetite for growth and learning but the only time I have that full factor is when I am seeking the Word of God. I am definitely NOT lost! I know Who will fill me up.

I do seek aloud and many people start inserting their own views. It frustrates me. I need to speak so keeping some things is difficult to do especially when I don't have a conversation partner. That is why I blog and tweet. It is a way to get the stuff out. I know the blog has helped. Yet, I still get those occasional people who like to tell it like it is according to them. I usually end up deleting their comments. Maybe I need to have a t-shirt made with this quote. Oh, to find a listener - one understands the art of conversation, the give and take, and the importance of asking good questions.

Maybe it speaks of the age we are in. Forget listening. Lets just spout out. Lets live outside the box. Lets spatter ourselves over each other.

to be a superpower or not to be ...

She asked me what I thought about the country of Georgia - I did not want to start WWIII with her (she is new & I don't know her that well) and she doesn't want WWIII globally I understand but I am a fighter and especially for the underdog. So you can guess what I really think! So because she asked me something like this without knowing what it might stir up, I thought I would try to ask a question - to do a bit of research on the side... Here is the burning question I posed to her:

"Is the USA a superpower?"

"Not anymore. We used to be but no so anymore."

"Do we need to be a superpower?"

"Yes, we do!"

"Why?"

"To protect ourselves."

"So we aren't here to rule the world?"

"No."

I am doing a bit of research because of a conversation a while back that I don't remember to much about but I do remember how I felt. It is definitely a feeling of being misunderstood as an American by an Australian but most likely what most of the world feels about us. This Australian shared a Kingdom view with me and still felt this way... I wish I could give him my findings.

I know there is going to be all kinds of answers to these questions. But for the most part I am bitting on that most Americans are going to what to be a superpower for the purpose of self protection and for protecting of others even if they have a worldly view.

Personally I do not like to view the US as a superpower because that is not what our purpose is. I have always felt the history echo forward. Our greatest strengths is faith, creativity, and the love of the underdog. We are not conventual and young at heart. Unfortunately, we are bit loud which causes a bit target on our backs. Down in the very depths of me is a fighter. Always will be. I will defend at all costs. ... {jumps down from soapbox & fades out of view}

Royalty ...

The pea in my mattress has been the whether or not I am treating God as Sovereign. Yes, I know God as Creator, Heavenly Father, and Friend but do I really give God the honor that He deserves?

Let me explain by a visual. Do I come into His Courts with a defiant heart angry over some ruling that He has put into my life? Or maybe I have thrown a temper tantrum with hot tears thinking it is ok to have a good cry. Or maybe I keep coming at God with a barge of questions. It is ok to have questions and to answer them with God's Word but to keep hounding God isn't right.

I am a child of the Most High God. I am the daughter of the King who is above all other kings. This is royalty. He will not do anything to harm me and in fact He is the giver of good gifts. It is no secret that for some reason I am a loner and my life journey is aloneness. So what I am doing now is talking back that my God knows what He is doing in my life. So it is time for me to come into His courts with praise and thanksgiving with a confident spirit that all is working for my good for this child of His is in His Hands soft and moldable for His keeping and desire.

friend questions ...

*What is friendship?
*What is it not?
*Do you pick your friends or do they pick you? or is it a combo of both?
*What are the 'needs' & 'wants' in a friend?
*How do you show yourself friendly?
*How do you stay connected with others?
*How does isolation creep in?
*What will destroy a friendship with you?
*What makes a friendship worth keeping?
*How do you communicate?
*How do you fight?
*How do you remain truthful & uplifting to a friend?
*How do you diffuse tension in another's life?
*How do you diffuse your own mounting tension?
*Do you harbor love for your friend & how?
*When you are terminated as a friend, do you want to hash is out?
*Do you want answers?
*Will those answers allow you to go on?
*If no answers are given, how do you move on with good will or will you harbor hate?

Four years and counting -
and I am still have unanswered questions. I still find myself a wash in thought trying to figure out what happened etc. Here again I was sitting there with pen in hand just writing down one question after another as they tumbling in my head. I have boiled it down to figuring out what I should do when I have no real answers. Do I fill in the blanks with my own answers which will only come from my own experiences and have no understanding from another's world. Sure you can stand on the mountains shouting out in the expanse with fists raised and with all the force and fierce you can muster - I WILL SURVIVE! When you are done, all the echos come rushing back leaving you feel foolish and red faced. So I just throw out the questions into this blog sphere and will see what comes rushing back...

individual vs community ...

The word is that there are no words for the Opening Ceremonies at the Beijing Olympics. It was pure magic and ingenious to an extreme. I keep trying to go over the many visuals like a student at the feet of a master. It had the yin yang thing going on where the contrasts were put together. You had soft next to loud, child next to solder, simple next to complex, and tall next to small. I liked everything from the massive drums to the writing blocks done with human power to the green starmen to the globe with walking men to the touch lighting to the piece of artwork that was made through out the night including the march of athletes making the canvas come alive with color not to mention the child drawing in a smiley face for the sun. Just too beautiful because as I say I loved one, I go to the next and say I love it too.

As I was watching the printing blocks go up and down and the camera was taking in all the angles, I just knew that people where under those making them work before the secret was revealed by all of them popping through with huge smiles. I just could not help but think on the 2008 drummers and these printing blocks (etc) about the huge amount of people coming together and making this work in precise patterns. It is the Chinese picture. Few in power with many working together for the common cause unlike here in the USA where our actions are more individualistic. (I must note that both are creative in there own way.) I will never think one is better than the other because there should be a balance. Rather, my thoughts strayed to the concept of relationships in China.

If the people work together with such precision are they ever lonely? Do they ever want for companionship? Do they ever feel the need to step out of their box and let everything hang out? If they don't have little outburst episodes, aren't they hiding? Hmmm, just thinking aloud.

I am more of an individual type of person more because of how I am made. I don't follow the crowd because ... oh well, just because! I see a different way open before me and yet I carry this burden of aloneness. I keep seeking and so I wander ! And Tolkien said "All that wonder are not lost." {!!!}

apple mash ...

What is up with Apple? I have been an Apple freak ever since I laid eyes on them back in my college days. I have never owned a PC - only Apples for me and Macintosh is my favorite flavor even in the real thing from the tree. However, there is a trend that I do not like.

The new iMacs do not come with dial up connection nor word processing as a standard. What? Yes, tis true. What is a computer but a place to come to write and create? We don't need to write? Good grief!

So more $$ to throw out to the wind. What is most frustrating is that you it is limited where you can get products for Apple meaning the cost goes up. Sure go cheap. Buy a PC. But I am a creative and Apple is a creative as well. And you have to pay for that creativity through the nose. Creativity should not be a luxury for the rich and famous. It is wasted on them.

I have been fussing about with my iMac for about a year now and it has been getting more intense ever since I lost my Appleworks. I am going crazy! Need an apple friend! Brainstorming and help greatly wanted! I want to really buckle down and get started writing. Apple is my brand of magic... or I thought it was...

telling others what to do ...

She is telling me that she is best at telling others what to do but cannot do what she tells others to do! And to top it off she is telling me who hates others telling me what to do!!!! Yikes! I want to talk to her but I am always trying to side step sensitive issues where I am finding my way but not needing any advise from her. I am not good at side stepping my own issues. I should have followed a strength of just start asking questions. However, I hesitate to ask questions for fear they may seem blunt. Hmmm, if she is going to tell me what to do and I don't welcome it, maybe it is time to put her in the hot seat! Nah, but maybe I can show her where her own strengths are by asking her thinking questions.

Out of the blue on Monday she starts talking and I who has been feeling lonely welcome a good listen let her. We talked for an hour and half. It was mostly a good chat, but I couldn't help but fall into a funk over some little things she said. It snowballed until I felt flatten. Barely had any sleep last night and I felt very weary. It keeps to keep repeating and I just don't know what to do about it. Where am I failing? I must be more confident and strong.... and when I feel the horns come out - do something about it!

tiny feet ...

I could not believe it! There where 3 little girls outside my window pulling up their shirts and pulling down their pants. Something crazy broiled up and I few out of my apartment like fire eating gas. Funny thing is that the girls didn't run even though they knew I was coming! My voice was rough and I tried very hard to put fear and danger into their deed without going into huge embarrassing details. They didn't say a word and I told them that I wasn't out here to be mean but to keep them safe. Later, I think of questions I should have asked them to make them think about their actions and possibly bring in Words of God.

Today I read Proverbs 4. First thought was this chapter is all about feet! So coupling together the little girls episode and this, I wondered what I would tell my own kids if I had them. Here is a go:

Ponder the path of your feet,
& let all your ways be established.
Proverbs 4:26

What do you teach your child about danger? How do teach them to know what to do whether alone or with a group? My main answer is to teach them to know what to do with their feet.

According to our Armor we should shod our feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace (Eph 6:15). The whole purpose of putting on the Armor is because we do not fight against flesh but to stand up against the wicked. So how does this peace gospel protect us? While every child needs to know they have a namesake they must protect. Our peaceful ways gives us opportunity to bow out when strife begins to weed up.

In Proverbs 4:12 it talks about walking and running. Walking is about walking in our faith and when doing so our feet will not be hindered. Running is about running from evil and when doing so our feet will not stumble into sin. Verse 14 warns of not going into the way of the wicked. I would show my child that it is right and noble to steer clear of evil and if evil is present FLEE! Verse 18 gives you the blessing of feet that walk in right ways. Sunshine feet! Oh, what a wonderful gift to give your child.

Funny how a girl who should-be-a-mom-but-doesn't-what-to has this welling notion to make the path of children safe and easy to accomplish!

trips ...

The last Sunday in June I was listening to three people who went on a short missionary trip. I was disappointed and confused. Then a got a rush of trip thoughts and I thought I would share:

Life is an adventure filled with many journeys, paths, and trips. On each one you should put some serious thought into what you want to take on the trip and yes, serious thought on the souvenirs you want to bring back. So what should you pack? And do you want to pick up to bring home?

You should really do some Bible reading and find out what you want to learn. Each time you actively do this God comes to you in a big way. Maybe it is verses or hymns to should be your focus. Then watch as God opens up experiences for you. The souvenirs will be related to what you focus on. You will come home with visuals and stories of God's hand at work. Be active in your learning. Write down what you are taking and what you want to pick up.

How often do you let the trivial stuff in like how will my hair hold up in this climate? Ok, this speaks to me I would let something like this bother me and I wouldn't want that to take a toll on my learning. How about if you are building something and they have a totally different way of doing things - are you going to let that broil up or can you go into that situation learning their ways to get a better sense of their lives?

Trips are not necessarily about doing but about listening and watching ... If you are doing and pushing, the ears and eyes are off target....

Lemon Kekir Ice Cream ...

Thank you to Chocolate & Zucchini for posting her ice cream try outs. Ice creams out there contain sugar or fake sugar. It is summer and this food allergy girl would like to have some ice cream to sooth out those hot days. So I made some.

I used to have an ice cream maker but it was coming apart and leaking. I figured it was unsafe and threw out. I need to get another since I have to make my own if I want HA free cool off. I did make this in a stainless steal bowl in the freezer. It came out like Italian ice which is just fine but sometimes it would be nice to have a creamy mixture!

Chocolate & Zucchini has a coconut ice cream I have got to try out next. Even though she has sugar listed I shall do like the Lemon Kekir and use fructose, agave, honey, or a combo of each.

This girl has a cool happy tummy now. {satisfied sigh}

Why twitter?

1. Being a writer want-to-be, I thought this would be a good challenge for me. You have 149 spaces to write an answer to "What are you doing?" I have decided to really stay focused and make sure that every answer is an action and not a state of being. Sure if I have space, I will hopefully add interesting tidbits, too. I aim to make my replies to others an action too. When you read the tweets of others, there is often replies that leave you out of the loop. It is suppose to be a rolling conversation. I want my experience to be inclusive enough to allow anyone to jump in and tweet at any time.

2. I have noticed that phone calls from friends often include the question "What are you doing?" I have to admit that question has annoyed me in the past! The obvious answer is that I am sitting here with phone in hand talking to you! The underlying answer is that what I may be doing in my life seem uninteresting enough to share with you. So why twitter to this question if it annoys me? Now, that is a question! Hmmm, I feel that what we do with our lives is important even the mundane stuff. It is intertwined with our being valuable and with a purpose. So, this answering the question of what I am doing is allowing me to stop and pay attention to the moment and make sure I am living beautifully and doing beautifully with thought.

3. I read somewhere that Twitter is about having a conversation and it is a conversation with everyone all over the world. I am conversation deprived. When alone for long periods of time and the walls begin to lack luster, conversation wants to be heard by another human being. I am hoping to send my actions and thoughts out into the wide abiss and see if I get any message in the bottle back. Just maybe I will strike up a webbie friend or two or more. And just maybe a webbie friend or two will become a more sustain and substantial conversation. Good and rich for both.

*topping* - I can tweet anytime with email. It is nice when I cannot be 'online'!

*You can see my tweets on the side column ->