A thought popped into to my head the other day and it goes like this ...
If I am wanting within a relationship with a man, he ain't the one!
... whew & wow! Pretty big thought for little ol' me! Then I started to list my wants and began to realize to fight back the 'he's just not into you' and all those guys who give off mix messages with my own 'he's just not want I want'. Two can play the game.
my want list
I want :
1. to be choosen/pursued by him
2. to follow his leadership.
3. to be filled by him & to receive from him.
4. to be his beauty and know his eyes light up when I walk in the room.
5. to be rescued by him.
6. to be protected by him & know I am safe.
7. to be kept by him.
8. to hear endearments & I love you's from him.
9. to be of value to him.
10. to be needed by him.
I feel these are basic needs all women need within the agreement of marriage. And if I find that I cannot function safely within these bonds, then he ain't the one! I WILL NOT accept motley and muddled inbred messages from boys who claim they arn't into you half the time and the other half of the time want you to pant after them. I am making boys sound bad but I have had grown men, a few who were suppose to be believers and even one I really looked up to mess around without regard to my heart and I am sick of it.
Truth be told I am sick of myself who broods over all the mixed messages trying to knit together something thick enough to keep me warm. Oh, to be safe .... NOT GOING THERE! Bye! I got to go read Psalms 18! The True Knight in Shining Armor on a white horse to boot....
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007
a distress damsel psalm ...
I've hinted to the fact that I am in the backyard of my 30's. I guess I am freaking out a bit emotionally too - not at my age (suppose that will happen soon) but at these rollercoaster feelings and the knowledge of the craziness my mother felt. {screams} I just want to move through this phase of my life with all the good lessons I've learned so far like the joy and continue through with more joy, tranquility, and gentleness. I don't want anger to rule my life...
I connected few dots yesturday and I am on the point of breaking through to something huge for myself. It makes me quite excited and I hope that by weeks end when my vacation is ending that I have 'my own best friend habits' set in place. Meaning a way to fight back and save me from the 'internal social pressures' that run amuck in women my age... I am enough and loved.. Now lets take a look a woman's fairytale of a psalms!
One of the major connecting of the dots for me was reading Psalms 18 through the eyes of a woman instead of a soldier or through King David. Put on your female eyes and try it with all the muck that is going on in your life and include your fairytale story and see how this psalm changes your life...
Psalms 18: 1-6 speaks of your love for God and His Mighty ways in your life. Then you call out to be saved from your enemies. What is your enemy? Death - when you just want to live. Death for the woman is feeling like no one cares that your nose is the only thing that is staying above the torent waters. You are treading water but nothing is keeping you afloat. You are tired. You are doing everything and being everybody to family, work etc. Quite simply, you are trying to be the best you and the emotions and feelings are telling you 'not enough, you are just not enough!' So you cry out to God who has been there and has shown Himself to you before but you just not feeling it now and that makes you feel bad even worse.
Now this is the exciting part! Check out Psalms 18: 8-19! How many of us has dreamed of that prince on a white horse coming to our rescue? Why can't there be that rescue for this poor damsel in distress? HERE IT IS!!!! DRINK IT IN!!! See how our woes and distresses anger our God? He is enraged that the enemy is stealing our Joy and our strength. Here in these verses I am floored at the description of His Anger! {dances the happiest jig ever} Read that over and over until you feel it real in your life. Then watch Him swoop down and feel yourself swing through the air coming to rest behind God on His mighty white work stallion. Wrap your arms around Him and don't let go!
Psalms 18:20-24 is where you tell God what you have done in the right ways. It is an honesty check but when you have down the right ways and talk that out to God, you know by keeping His Ways there is blessing there. You are reminding yourself not God because He already knows. It is time for you to get into your path and see through. It is understanding that even when you do everything right and it feels like failure, that is the enemy talking. You talk back with the God-Blessings that you receive by doing right ways.
Psalms 18:25-36 is declaring God Attributes in your life path. Again it is you talking back or aloud about how your Prince has rescued you and has fought the battle for you. It is a self reminder not to get stuck in not being enough. That is death. Stay away from it. God is your Source. He is your Everything from Alpha to Omega. He is your Commander. He has your orders and the way to do them. He is your Husbandman and Keeper. He is your Creator and He sure created us a bit more intricate and intimate that man. He understands all our nuances. He made us this way for a reason - for marriage and for man. He created us naturing and beautiful - two aspects of His Nature. Who else should we go to if we are feeling used up and ugly? The Source!!!! Fill up!!!
Psalms 18:37-42 is showing how God Attributes come through us. He arms us with strength / joy for the battle before us. Look how we crush our destroyers! We are not destroyed. We have the victory.
Psalms 18:42-50 is praise to God who rescued us. We are His chosen and that does not mean we lay down and die. We arise and claim victory over all that seek to crush us. The enemy hates our beauty. Satan will do anything to undermine us. By doing so he thinks he can bring down God. We know this yet our actions say we don't believe that God is our Salvation and Rescuer. Time to live this Psalm out moment by moment. Our story is a romance story and it has a happy ending. Time to make victory in our middles....
{wails beating my chest it is so powerful}
I connected few dots yesturday and I am on the point of breaking through to something huge for myself. It makes me quite excited and I hope that by weeks end when my vacation is ending that I have 'my own best friend habits' set in place. Meaning a way to fight back and save me from the 'internal social pressures' that run amuck in women my age... I am enough and loved.. Now lets take a look a woman's fairytale of a psalms!
One of the major connecting of the dots for me was reading Psalms 18 through the eyes of a woman instead of a soldier or through King David. Put on your female eyes and try it with all the muck that is going on in your life and include your fairytale story and see how this psalm changes your life...
Psalms 18: 1-6 speaks of your love for God and His Mighty ways in your life. Then you call out to be saved from your enemies. What is your enemy? Death - when you just want to live. Death for the woman is feeling like no one cares that your nose is the only thing that is staying above the torent waters. You are treading water but nothing is keeping you afloat. You are tired. You are doing everything and being everybody to family, work etc. Quite simply, you are trying to be the best you and the emotions and feelings are telling you 'not enough, you are just not enough!' So you cry out to God who has been there and has shown Himself to you before but you just not feeling it now and that makes you feel bad even worse.
Now this is the exciting part! Check out Psalms 18: 8-19! How many of us has dreamed of that prince on a white horse coming to our rescue? Why can't there be that rescue for this poor damsel in distress? HERE IT IS!!!! DRINK IT IN!!! See how our woes and distresses anger our God? He is enraged that the enemy is stealing our Joy and our strength. Here in these verses I am floored at the description of His Anger! {dances the happiest jig ever} Read that over and over until you feel it real in your life. Then watch Him swoop down and feel yourself swing through the air coming to rest behind God on His mighty white work stallion. Wrap your arms around Him and don't let go!
Psalms 18:20-24 is where you tell God what you have done in the right ways. It is an honesty check but when you have down the right ways and talk that out to God, you know by keeping His Ways there is blessing there. You are reminding yourself not God because He already knows. It is time for you to get into your path and see through. It is understanding that even when you do everything right and it feels like failure, that is the enemy talking. You talk back with the God-Blessings that you receive by doing right ways.
Psalms 18:25-36 is declaring God Attributes in your life path. Again it is you talking back or aloud about how your Prince has rescued you and has fought the battle for you. It is a self reminder not to get stuck in not being enough. That is death. Stay away from it. God is your Source. He is your Everything from Alpha to Omega. He is your Commander. He has your orders and the way to do them. He is your Husbandman and Keeper. He is your Creator and He sure created us a bit more intricate and intimate that man. He understands all our nuances. He made us this way for a reason - for marriage and for man. He created us naturing and beautiful - two aspects of His Nature. Who else should we go to if we are feeling used up and ugly? The Source!!!! Fill up!!!
Psalms 18:37-42 is showing how God Attributes come through us. He arms us with strength / joy for the battle before us. Look how we crush our destroyers! We are not destroyed. We have the victory.
Psalms 18:42-50 is praise to God who rescued us. We are His chosen and that does not mean we lay down and die. We arise and claim victory over all that seek to crush us. The enemy hates our beauty. Satan will do anything to undermine us. By doing so he thinks he can bring down God. We know this yet our actions say we don't believe that God is our Salvation and Rescuer. Time to live this Psalm out moment by moment. Our story is a romance story and it has a happy ending. Time to make victory in our middles....
{wails beating my chest it is so powerful}
Thursday, November 30, 2006
knitted together ...
I was sorting through the Bible stories looking for those who battled and journeyed alone in their walk with God. I will admit that you can make your list of those who had to go it alone but as I have encountered each of these courageous men and women, it has been God-proved to me that they did not go it alone! There is only One who had total separation but more on that later. Because I have been mentally scouring through all the stories and have been reading Ephesians and Colossians, I strongly believe that we are ‘knitting together’ and not made to do it alone. (I will not even use Adam here … which has been my favorite lean-on example!)
~ K i n g D a v i d ~
I believe that God personally put King David into hiding not to spare his life but to give David some training in humility. But take a closer look in those caves and who do you see with David? Hundreds upon hundreds of men who chose to risk everything to fight with their future king. Amazing!!! David did not ask these men to come with him. They chose!
Beware of those that are here … they are probably sent by God to keep you from the dangers of depression.
~ Q u e e n E s t h e r ~
I believe that God used a love story to prove once again that He has a bigger plan. Even though you may have a small and beautiful role, He connects you to others. See how Queen Esther asked her people to fast and pray for her as she approached her husband the king without an invitation. Remember what happened to the other queen who did not obey? God used Esther to save the Israelis from mass murder but only from these same people supporting their queen.
The only two things that are Eternal are God’s Word and people.
~ C a i n ~
This is a very intriguing story. I sometimes feel for poor Cain. God commanded a certain way to worship Him – a first born lamb. Not vegetables! Yes, Cain being a farmer is going to bring his first fruits but he never went to his brother Abel for a trade of goods. Rather Cain invoked God’s wrath and in turn killed Abel. God in His Infinite Wisdom marked Cain forever for not humbling himself in worship and being his brother’s keeper. Cain was to live out his days excluded from all mankind because any one who came in contact with Cain quickly would get away. There would be no end to this isolation because with the mark no one would raise a hand to kill Cain or they would be stuck down by God.
Not the way I would want to live. All of this could have been avoided!
No matter what God has designed each of our lives to be our brother’s keeper.
~ J e s u s ~
The Son of God is the one and only person listed in the whole Bible who had to go utterly and completely alone on His Journey. After the humiliation and the beating in front of a screaming hateful crowd, Jesus was nailed to the cross to die for the payment of our sins. It was so much more than anyone of us could bear. The freak storm was not an accident. It was God turning His back on all the ugliness and intolerable sin that Jesus carried for us. The Son cried out ‘’ My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?’’ Talk about a horrific burden to bear alllllllll alone!
God has never turned His back on us. He is the Unchangeable God. He is the Forever and For Always God. He chose us! Then He chose to love us! We never go it alone when we seek to walk with Him. Not only do we have Him but He has put in place a support system of people to help us along the way. Sometimes they are there all along and sometimes a hardship comes our way so that we will seek support and to be a support to others. WoooWeeeee, I love how God works!
To humbly walk with God may mean to humbly open our vision and our hearts to what is beyond the loud of our worlds.
~ E p h e s i a n s & C o lo s s i a n s ~
The author of these two letters is none other than Paul whose love language is touch. When reading these letters they are very similar because the recipients where in two different locations but needed the same encouragement. Encouragement to grasp the saving knowledge of Christ’s love and to serve others in this love. Listen in.
Over and over again Paul, the toucher, encourages the believers to exercise the greatest command, love one another. He does not want the believers to be so light or careless with those they are in contact with in their every day worlds. This is not just a lesson for back then but for now as well. It just might be more important today as we have so many ways to bond with others yet we have become so impersonal and extremely careless with our actions. Paul also addressed the lovers who get hurt .. forgive and keep on loving. (ouch!)
Love is the chains, bonds, and weight of perfection
~ L O V E ~
Take love itself as described throughout the pages of the Bible. Love is not a gooey noun. Rather it is a hard working action verb. Love is love when you do it to someone meaning it flows from you to another. Christ Himself is the perfect example for trading in His Beauty for the ashes He received from us. Love is the tender affirming words. Love is the quality time spent listening or sampling just being with someone. Love is serving someone in a task that just might be tough for them. Love is giving a special gift that is purely perfect for them. Love is touching not just physical but includes the forgotten ways like mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
A believer’s job? LOVE
I just cannot apologize for the strong convictions that have grown more intense these recent days about the people-bonds that believers are asked to do with their lives. I had a question pop into my head that if God really thinks His Bride is so beautiful and He takes time to invest so much into her so that she is in full bloom when He receives her into His Kingdom, how can His Bride is be more beautiful as this age is waxing old and thin? (completely astounded!) I see and feel so many hurtful, careless actions done toward each other. It is not just loud and ugly things we do, but also the casual and very sloppy way we treat each other. Loneliness is not exclusive but everywhere. It is felt in the tone of voice, the roll of the eyes, the indifference... It can be said that isolation stops when you reach out and touch someone, but not so. When it comes to humans, love is a give and take. It is high time that we calculate what Eternal repercussions at stake when our vision is only set to the surface. Look deep. Be a feeler. Be a sensitive. Be a conductor of this Precious Love Bond as Called of us.
~ K i n g D a v i d ~
I believe that God personally put King David into hiding not to spare his life but to give David some training in humility. But take a closer look in those caves and who do you see with David? Hundreds upon hundreds of men who chose to risk everything to fight with their future king. Amazing!!! David did not ask these men to come with him. They chose!
Beware of those that are here … they are probably sent by God to keep you from the dangers of depression.
~ Q u e e n E s t h e r ~
I believe that God used a love story to prove once again that He has a bigger plan. Even though you may have a small and beautiful role, He connects you to others. See how Queen Esther asked her people to fast and pray for her as she approached her husband the king without an invitation. Remember what happened to the other queen who did not obey? God used Esther to save the Israelis from mass murder but only from these same people supporting their queen.
The only two things that are Eternal are God’s Word and people.
~ C a i n ~
This is a very intriguing story. I sometimes feel for poor Cain. God commanded a certain way to worship Him – a first born lamb. Not vegetables! Yes, Cain being a farmer is going to bring his first fruits but he never went to his brother Abel for a trade of goods. Rather Cain invoked God’s wrath and in turn killed Abel. God in His Infinite Wisdom marked Cain forever for not humbling himself in worship and being his brother’s keeper. Cain was to live out his days excluded from all mankind because any one who came in contact with Cain quickly would get away. There would be no end to this isolation because with the mark no one would raise a hand to kill Cain or they would be stuck down by God.
Not the way I would want to live. All of this could have been avoided!
No matter what God has designed each of our lives to be our brother’s keeper.
~ J e s u s ~
The Son of God is the one and only person listed in the whole Bible who had to go utterly and completely alone on His Journey. After the humiliation and the beating in front of a screaming hateful crowd, Jesus was nailed to the cross to die for the payment of our sins. It was so much more than anyone of us could bear. The freak storm was not an accident. It was God turning His back on all the ugliness and intolerable sin that Jesus carried for us. The Son cried out ‘’ My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?’’ Talk about a horrific burden to bear alllllllll alone!
God has never turned His back on us. He is the Unchangeable God. He is the Forever and For Always God. He chose us! Then He chose to love us! We never go it alone when we seek to walk with Him. Not only do we have Him but He has put in place a support system of people to help us along the way. Sometimes they are there all along and sometimes a hardship comes our way so that we will seek support and to be a support to others. WoooWeeeee, I love how God works!
To humbly walk with God may mean to humbly open our vision and our hearts to what is beyond the loud of our worlds.
~ E p h e s i a n s & C o lo s s i a n s ~
The author of these two letters is none other than Paul whose love language is touch. When reading these letters they are very similar because the recipients where in two different locations but needed the same encouragement. Encouragement to grasp the saving knowledge of Christ’s love and to serve others in this love. Listen in.
’… for we are His Workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand that we should walk in them … eph 2:10
‘ … that you being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the width and length and depth and height – to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge, that you maybe filled with all the fullness of God …eph 3:17-18
‘… with all lowliness and gentleness, with longsuffering, bearing with one another in love … eph 4:2
‘… walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma… eph 5:2’
‘… Redeeming the time, because the days are evil … eph 5:16’
‘… that their hearts may be encouraged, being knitted together in love … col 2:2’
‘… put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, longsuffering; Bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a compliant against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do. But above all these things put on love, which is the bond of perfection … col 3:12-14’ (ouch!!!)
‘… redeeming the time … col 4:5’
Over and over again Paul, the toucher, encourages the believers to exercise the greatest command, love one another. He does not want the believers to be so light or careless with those they are in contact with in their every day worlds. This is not just a lesson for back then but for now as well. It just might be more important today as we have so many ways to bond with others yet we have become so impersonal and extremely careless with our actions. Paul also addressed the lovers who get hurt .. forgive and keep on loving. (ouch!)
Love is the chains, bonds, and weight of perfection
~ L O V E ~
Take love itself as described throughout the pages of the Bible. Love is not a gooey noun. Rather it is a hard working action verb. Love is love when you do it to someone meaning it flows from you to another. Christ Himself is the perfect example for trading in His Beauty for the ashes He received from us. Love is the tender affirming words. Love is the quality time spent listening or sampling just being with someone. Love is serving someone in a task that just might be tough for them. Love is giving a special gift that is purely perfect for them. Love is touching not just physical but includes the forgotten ways like mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.
A believer’s job? LOVE
I just cannot apologize for the strong convictions that have grown more intense these recent days about the people-bonds that believers are asked to do with their lives. I had a question pop into my head that if God really thinks His Bride is so beautiful and He takes time to invest so much into her so that she is in full bloom when He receives her into His Kingdom, how can His Bride is be more beautiful as this age is waxing old and thin? (completely astounded!) I see and feel so many hurtful, careless actions done toward each other. It is not just loud and ugly things we do, but also the casual and very sloppy way we treat each other. Loneliness is not exclusive but everywhere. It is felt in the tone of voice, the roll of the eyes, the indifference... It can be said that isolation stops when you reach out and touch someone, but not so. When it comes to humans, love is a give and take. It is high time that we calculate what Eternal repercussions at stake when our vision is only set to the surface. Look deep. Be a feeler. Be a sensitive. Be a conductor of this Precious Love Bond as Called of us.
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