weaknesses ...

I am in my weakness when it comes to numbers or math. I do not remember number sequences and it is difficult to do calculation problems in my head. I must need paper and pen to make sense of abstract. Please don't ramble off a series of numbers like a price or a telephone number! Go slow and put a rhythm to it so I can write it down. I am totally visual and numbers just begin to blur. I must see it in the concrete! Yes, I know Accounts Payable is totally math and that is what is bringing home to the dough. No wonder I have a hard time getting out of bed and feel like I am on a wheel I can't get off of.

I have poor group skills. I am at my best one on one like mentoring or in a team. A team is different than a group because a team is one for all - all for one whereas a group has a lot of interaction from all sides. It is more of a fight for your turf or go away. I am shy and that I can't go against it. Shy works with intrapersonal and team skills. With poor group skills I have a great weakness with speaking off the cuff. I don't have a speech impediment but sometimes a label like that fits. My brain goes faster than my tongue and then the brain starts going back around trying to keep all the points and try to listen. I am most certain that I cannot do all of that at one time and make sense!

I am at my weakest in confrontation situations. I seriously melt. Because of this melt down, I tend to beat around the bush or avoid 'issues' at all costs. I become afraid to be my purest self - me @ pure 8 yo. Sorry x. Guess I learned this too late to be totally honest with x. Even now trying to say what I should have said and pinned x to the wall, I doubt I could because I don't like walk-aways. I loathe abandonment. I loathe game play and 'having to be right' in a fight. I like understanding and working out. I would rather us both win by each of looking out for each other. Oh, to have someone to be stable and secure making me feel safe to be me and allowing me to stretch and grow together...

here are my weaknesses...