the huge Return ...

Just like anyone else when making an investment, one expects a return. Put money in the bank, one expect some interest. Same way with a friendship or a relationship, you give pieces of yourself and you expect to receive pieces of themselves. I am not talking an extreme amount but just a simple ebb and flow.

Then I got mad. Life experience after life experience has only proven that fellow humans reject, abandon, or ignore me. These humans are ones I have given pieces of myself to them. Believe me I am not one to give without some trust so these people I had felt some kind of connection. One to many times they have taken their presence from me. I had had it.

I wasn't about to stop engaging others. This was one hard fought gift I would not reject. I would keep on giving, but I would refuse to hope for the slightest return. I was afraid of this decision. I am a strong believer in keeping my life in balance. This didn't feel like balance.

My Dear little one,
Continue to serve wholeheartedly, continue to engage others with your cheery smiles and hellos, continue to give pieces of yourself .. I created you and designed your talents and passions. Serve Me in this way. Do not think of it as serving men. They cannot satisfy. You know deep within that I, your Heavenly Father and Husbandman rewards you for all the good you do. This is the Return you should keep your focus on. Keep on loving wide and deep. Huggggge Huggggers, My little girl.
~ always and everlasting your God

Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not men, because you know that the Lord will reward everyone for whatever good he does, ...
Eph 6:8

Ahhhhha! I gotta it. Here is the balance ...
she's out