reflecting ...

journal gene: If I would give you the wish to tell your 20*something self about the now*you, would you & what would you tell her?

me: It would be very tempting to want this wish granted! I would tell her that there has been no 'the one, no house w/ a picket fence, no love & roses... because maybe she would not have wasted time trying to figure out how to be a good wife and live her single life with a lot of gusto not caring about man's affections. Maybe she could stop the duplicity but I think it would have broken her heart and so, I would say no I do not wish to tell my 20*something anything. Wellllll..... maybe just to tell her that there will be very hard lessons ahead that will be bitter but to keep her heart soft & keep learning... Joy will come to you...

journal gene: If I would give you the wish to ask your 80*something self about your future*self, would you & what would you ask her?

me: It would be very tempting to want this wish granted! Right now I am stubborn enough that if I draw the love card in the next 10 years, I don't want it because I have always wished for the love through the ages... I could easily ask if love came but that isn't wise. And I don't want to know if I would 'fall in love at 80'. I could not comprehend that at this time. I guess I would want my 80*something self to tell me that there will be very hard lessons ahead that will be bitter but to keep on keeping on with keeping my heart soft and keep holding on to Joy. Joy is the greatest companion. And, never ever stop learning...

80yro self: {shaking head} "Oh, girl. Please get over that love thing! Let the God who created you and all of your passions love you! Keep your little hand in His huge one. Be passionate, delightful, and Joyful! That is enough!''