"Get away from me. I don't want others to know you are my sister," he said to her during a family outing at the local mall.
"You really should do something with your hair. It is a mess. Do you comb your hair? Maybe you should perm it." Comments that haunted her for many years causing great hatred towards what should be the crown of a woman's beauty.
"Are you going along with what I taught you or have you really thought about this in this way? Are sure about that?" Her father always was conferntational in efforts to get her to think. She always hope for encouragement for her thoughts but never received.
The look but never the pursuit. Yup, she liked this guy and this guy looked but never took action enough to say hi. He still looked even when he is married to another.
His silence. His moody behavior. His depression. His shutting out. His disappearance. How can she break though behavior like that? And why is it her problem?
This is how a heart breaks. Beat down. Ignore. Call it problems with her attitude.......
My Beautiful and Dearly Loved Child,
You heart breaks because the men in your life or the lack of men in your life have devalued you. You hunger for exceptance and attention. You ache for acknowledgement that you are indeed a beautiful creature. You want to know that you have brilliant thoughts. You desire to love so passionately.
I have noticed at your steps at trying understand your hunger pains. I am quite proud of your hard work at trying to be the best of who you are. You understand the fine line of being open and soft to the loved ones who have hurt you and knowing when to walk away from those who have no respect for your passion.
Ahhhh, I have listen to those questions that consume your heart. O Child, Taste and see that I Am Good. I will fill all your hunger pains. Do not seek after attention from earthly men. Trust Me and take Refuge in Me. Come to My Table and eat. My Storehouses are full and overflowing. I Satisfy and you will never hunger. But you have to keep coming to My banquet. Let My Love fill you... Let Me call you, Blessed.
~Always your Heavenly Father, Faithful Brother and Friend
'O Taste & see that the Lord is Good! Blessed is the man who Trusts and takes Refuge in Him.' ~ ps 34:8
'You prepareth a table before me' ~ps 23:5a
Yes, this is how the heart breaks but i love how God said to me...
ReplyDelete"The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit."
Psalm 34:18
"...He restores my soul..." Psalm 23:3
Where heart break occurs He holds us close and catches the tears, we are taken deep and hidden in a place of safety and security, then He steps into those devastating situations and fights for us, to defend, save, restore and set free so that we can be free to live fully in Him...
I've had another thought recently that not only are we His beautiful Warrior Princesses but we are His Warrior Bride... I am His Beloved and He is mine. I am the love of His Heart.
He sees your beauty, He desires you, He pursues you and He lavishes His deep love on you abundantly...
Isaiah 54:5
For your Maker is your husband— the LORD Almighty is his name— the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer; he is called the God of all the earth.
I am rejoicing and still thinking...
Thank you Lovely. Beautiful encouragement.
ReplyDeleteI like that jim elliot quote you sent my way:
"Let not our longing slay the appetite of our living."
Sometimes in your journey you fall into a mire. You wish and desire for more.... more in depth of relationships ... more from love ... more more more.... I think it is natural for the believer to wish for more..... it is that eternal longing of Home....
but then you crawl out of that muddy mire and dive into our appetite of living........ embracing our Husband where our strength comes.......
beloved
Beautiful verse .. isa 54:5