Contained ...

Lucy Swindoll asked her brother this question.  I saw it and thought it was an interesting question.  Of course, I love questions and I love to ask them and mostly like to hear the response.  So, I ask you - What is your favorite feeling and why?

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I think my favorite feeling would be 'contained'.  Maybe better words would be 'at rest', 'peaceful', 'calm', 'safe'...  I like crawling under the heavy covers and pulling them up tight to my chin or nose and turning down the dimmed lights to darkness.  I imagine God's Arm over me and everything else is shut down.  No more worries.  I can't stand drama.  It doesn't need to be that hard.  I deal with a boss that makes things bigger than they are.  I shake my head (when she isn't looking) and send a prayer.  I have a little brother that is a huge worry wort and gets dramatic about things.  I keep thinking that I have 10 years on him and maybe he will mellow out or not!  I do have those feelings of angst in me but I try to keep the outer layer calm.  I do go quiet when there is turmoil about or if I am in pain.  Keeping contained or calm is my coping mechanism.  Don't get me wrong, I am very passionate and I have some majorly strong feelings and they do walk about aloud.  I do have my moments that I am out of control.  I do think that they are less as I have grown up. {wink wink} But like we have uncovered I am still very much a girl with brainy moments.  I am a quiet person and I believe in being a good neighbor.  I have been an apartment dweller in a building of 8 where it was more like communal living.  I lived in someone's else cigarette smoke and violent rampages.  Yelling makes me shut down.  All this is what I call 'living outside your box'.  I believe the only thing you should do outside the box is creative thinking!  Yes, my favorite feeling is 'contained'.  

chaos & home sweet home!

Whew!  I am a new home owner all of three weeks plus an added bonus of a broken toe(s) or foot as well making it very difficult to unpack and carry heavy loads.  It has been hard to keep my little nose above the  chaos.

Stuff is everywhere.  There is stuff in the basement and stuff in the garage and stuff in the little room.  I wouldn't mind so much if I wasn't hobbling up and down the stairs and out into the chilly garage with a bum foot.  My foot lets me know by throwing a very hot temper tantrum.  I finally popped the blood blister but the toe nail needs to come off.  So I am in for a few more weeks of discomfort.  Oh, how did I break my toe/foot?  Well, blunt force trauma from a 20 pound frozen turkey when I tried to help and empty out the frig and freezer for the move!

Then there were the verrrrrrrrrrrry dirty carpets!  My Mom has three boy dogs and a hubby that can track up a white carpet in a jiffy and her carpets are pretty clean.  I just can't believe how many spots that should have been an easy clean was left untreated.  We are tackling the carpets which means stuff is moved about which leaves me in a state of mess.  The master bedroom carpet was majorly a mud room!  The water was sickening very dirty!  Not sure if I will sleep in there or out on the sofa tonight as the carpets dry out.

After the carpets I would like to tackle the walls with fresh coats of paint.  I want white for most of the living parts and the for the craft room and a grey for the library and for the hallways.  I would like to tackle the craft cave as my first room to complete.  I already know what I want in that room.  All the white furniture is going in there with pops of blue.  Once I get my craft room organized, I can have a place to go to when it gets overwhelming.

I know this is all good.  I have been hearing "God Will Take Care of You" on BNNRadio.org a lot this week.  It sort of made me nervous but then I just took it heart that it is God just calming me down.  Don't get me wrong, I do love this place and the chaos will pass.  This is a huge feast and I plan on not choking!  I do have lots of blessings.  I am very happy that the spots came up in the dining room and I will be happy about the bedroom carpet too.  I have a pantry!!!  I love that!  No more excuses of over buying an item of food and missing out on another.  Once glance - ok, a looooong glance - and I know what to buy at the grocery store.  My cupboards are nice and everything is organized and pretty.  I do have a few drawers to figure out and some things to decide if I really need to keep.  These things are all lovely and I am grateful for but there is something that really toppings!

I have changed wildlife for God's wildlife!  I have bunnies eating Sunday breakkie with me.  A squirrel tapped the patio door and scared me but he stayed there a bit and then scampered off.  I was so happy to have that visit.  Then Thursday morning when I opened up the house for the day, I spied a silver tan girl squirrel with a brown ombre boy squirrel drinking from the birdbath like two lovers at the soda shop!  Then of course I enjoy the robins and the cardinal couple but not so much the big black birds.  Then there is this orange butterfly that is hanging out.  I just don't understand why I am seeing this butterfly in spring when I think I should be seeing caterpillars.  Dad says you have to have butterflies before caterpillars.  Yup.  Of course there are the flowers too that is a new surprise with each bloom like gifts at your birthday party.

I have taken advantage of eating on the patio step twice now when the weather has been warm enough to enjoy.  So who needs a vacation on a secluded sandy beach somewhere warm when you have a nice little home to make your own and a nice little patio to enjoy and some nooks to make an herb garden in?