Tuesday, December 20, 2005

the gift of self...

He disappeared from her life citing his insular tendencies when life demanded to much from him. Every single person was banished from his space ... well, except his responsibilities of fatherhood.

Funny thing how time brings out patterns and habits... patterns of disappearance ... habits of shutting down access to him. He said that is how he is. Even when he said someone was insular, she flat out asked him if he wasn't insular. His answer was yes.

Her heart breaks over and over. He was a treasured gift. He choose to take this gift back. He doesn't even allow her to fight for the relationship. He said he wanted someone to survive him. Now how can she? She is just too much for him. Or has he failed himself for not getting his life back where he has balance of each moment of each day so that he never has to go into total insular mode again? Why can't he see how withholding himself is taking away a precious gift?

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